A golf ball sized lump
I have a lump the size of a golf ball on my pelvis. Near the hip joint. I'm hopefully going to find out what it is today. But the place I was going to go isn't open for some reason. It's supposed to be. I'm gonna go back in a little while and see if it's open then.I'm really scared though. I don't know what it is. It could be a lot of very bad things. It could mean that I will never be able to have children. A fear that I have had for a while. I am very scared.
I quit smoking on the first. This is my third day, and I hardly want one at all. I mean, I want one, but the craving isn't that bad. Very easily ignored. I knew I could quit if I wanted to. Or when I wanted to. Alex didn't quit though. He's smoking a lot less though, now that he can't smoke in my room. He only has one or two a day. And he says that he isn't going to buy them anymore. I don't know how that will work for him. Although, he better not start buying a lot of them, or I will kick his ass. *sigh* I don't feel good. I'm really stressed out over this thing on me. And I don't have any weed to smoke. I wish I did. If I didn't have weed, I would not be able to quit cigs like this. But weed is a lot better for you, so it's ok. I'm gonna go. My head hurts.
I quit smoking on the first. This is my third day, and I hardly want one at all. I mean, I want one, but the craving isn't that bad. Very easily ignored. I knew I could quit if I wanted to. Or when I wanted to. Alex didn't quit though. He's smoking a lot less though, now that he can't smoke in my room. He only has one or two a day. And he says that he isn't going to buy them anymore. I don't know how that will work for him. Although, he better not start buying a lot of them, or I will kick his ass. *sigh* I don't feel good. I'm really stressed out over this thing on me. And I don't have any weed to smoke. I wish I did. If I didn't have weed, I would not be able to quit cigs like this. But weed is a lot better for you, so it's ok. I'm gonna go. My head hurts.