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I have to do certain things to keep myself from staying depressed.
I dunno why I'm depressed....it just happens
I start thinking about things, and everything all at once just gets me down i guess. It's just oen fo those things. I really wanted to talk to scott during my break but it didn't happen. I shoulda texted john and seen if he was with him, but i dont think he's off work yet...or scott woulda texted me by now to tell me he was with him...right? O well who knows i guess. I probably wont even see him tonight. That's gonna suck, but I've been with him pretty much every night for the last like week now lol....actually more then that i think.
I'm trying not to get so caught up in him yet...considering i might be leaving state soon. I really wanna get into this school, but I'm afriad of the same thing happening again. Like it did with josh. I dont think i could stand that happening again. I really like Scott, but i wont lose this chance because of him. I wont make that mistake again.
He told me we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. But i don't see how this is gonna end well......
At the moment I'm sitting at the Walters' working on looking up local music. There is a shit load of rock and ska bands in maryland...did anyone know that? But not much of anything else lol. I actually dont even feel like being here today. I really just wanted to sit around my house and do nothing til i had to go to my grandparents house tonight. Apparently tom's coming home for a bit....least that's what I'm told haha.
yyyeeaaahhh anyway, i should probably post this before karl comes back...we're going downstairs soon i believe. The only bad thing about Fridays here is the fact that I stay late :-( o well...experience experience
I dunno why I'm depressed....it just happens
I start thinking about things, and everything all at once just gets me down i guess. It's just oen fo those things. I really wanted to talk to scott during my break but it didn't happen. I shoulda texted john and seen if he was with him, but i dont think he's off work yet...or scott woulda texted me by now to tell me he was with him...right? O well who knows i guess. I probably wont even see him tonight. That's gonna suck, but I've been with him pretty much every night for the last like week now lol....actually more then that i think.
I'm trying not to get so caught up in him yet...considering i might be leaving state soon. I really wanna get into this school, but I'm afriad of the same thing happening again. Like it did with josh. I dont think i could stand that happening again. I really like Scott, but i wont lose this chance because of him. I wont make that mistake again.
He told me we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. But i don't see how this is gonna end well......
At the moment I'm sitting at the Walters' working on looking up local music. There is a shit load of rock and ska bands in maryland...did anyone know that? But not much of anything else lol. I actually dont even feel like being here today. I really just wanted to sit around my house and do nothing til i had to go to my grandparents house tonight. Apparently tom's coming home for a bit....least that's what I'm told haha.
yyyeeaaahhh anyway, i should probably post this before karl comes back...we're going downstairs soon i believe. The only bad thing about Fridays here is the fact that I stay late :-( o well...experience experience