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Should I just leave him? I'm to the point that I was went I left both josh and joey....i just cant stand to talk to him anymore, we seem to fight about something every time we do talk. I'm worried about going and seeing him because I'm already in a not so nice mood and i can see it now he's just going to piss me off.
He tried to make me choose between me and my friends. Out right TOLD me to choose between him and Christiana/ Uncle john and them. Christiana's the one I was mad about. He knew Christiana was my best friend....and yet he specific said " her or me". And i told him I'd choose her in a heart beat. At least josh never came out and told me I HAD to choose. But then again once i told Rob I'd choose my friends over him, he got all lovely dovey and backed the fucked off. But I haven't gotten over it, and this is where we're going to fight now.....because he told me to choose, which means even though he may have backed off, in the back of his mind he's still going to be mad at me every time I tell him I'm with them. I wonder how mad i can make him before he'll leave me? We decided a long time ago that this was our last shot at this relationship. I'm afraid to let go NOW, because what if i decided i miss him later?
That's what happened when he broke up with me....I missed him the entire month he was gone, which was the only reason i asked him back out in the first place. I missed him for some reason or another. I love his family...when me and him aren't fighting things are great. SO either i let him go because i cant handel this....or me and him try to fix things now that i don't have to deal with the third party as much??I'm afriad to let him go because he's the only one i really trust. He may be a dick and an asshole, but i TRUST him not to hurt me in any way the others did. Thats why i was having problems in the first place....because i wasnt sure if i could trust him or not........stupid issues.
I don't know what i want. I never know what i want. He tried to make me choose between my friends and him. THAT is a deal breaker in itself.
So now what?? I need someone to talk to here and no ones online. I'm depressed and dont feel like doing anything today....much less going and dealing with fucking Rob.
He tried to make me choose between me and my friends. Out right TOLD me to choose between him and Christiana/ Uncle john and them. Christiana's the one I was mad about. He knew Christiana was my best friend....and yet he specific said " her or me". And i told him I'd choose her in a heart beat. At least josh never came out and told me I HAD to choose. But then again once i told Rob I'd choose my friends over him, he got all lovely dovey and backed the fucked off. But I haven't gotten over it, and this is where we're going to fight now.....because he told me to choose, which means even though he may have backed off, in the back of his mind he's still going to be mad at me every time I tell him I'm with them. I wonder how mad i can make him before he'll leave me? We decided a long time ago that this was our last shot at this relationship. I'm afraid to let go NOW, because what if i decided i miss him later?
That's what happened when he broke up with me....I missed him the entire month he was gone, which was the only reason i asked him back out in the first place. I missed him for some reason or another. I love his family...when me and him aren't fighting things are great. SO either i let him go because i cant handel this....or me and him try to fix things now that i don't have to deal with the third party as much??I'm afriad to let him go because he's the only one i really trust. He may be a dick and an asshole, but i TRUST him not to hurt me in any way the others did. Thats why i was having problems in the first place....because i wasnt sure if i could trust him or not........stupid issues.
I don't know what i want. I never know what i want. He tried to make me choose between my friends and him. THAT is a deal breaker in itself.
So now what?? I need someone to talk to here and no ones online. I'm depressed and dont feel like doing anything today....much less going and dealing with fucking Rob.