all i can say. . .
I think I'm in a better state now. I did what I could and it didn't work. So, at least I know I tried. The fact that he was being just being nice (I know this now) confused me for a few days. But, I'm back on track again. It would be easier if I could be furious but. . . alas that's not the path. Oh well. I cant say I wont think about it, that i wont beat myself up for a little while but each day will be better and each day i can look myself in the mirror and say, I did what I could. I tried. I failed, but I tried. Some where out there is someone who thinks I'm worth fighting for.