heads spinnin
everythin i thought i knew i dont ... every thing that was safe really wasnt ... why is it that everyweekend ... that is some what of a good one your not there .... yes i see you all the time anyways ..... but the days you really remember are the holidays ... and i want my memories to have him there ... am i tryin for somthn that he atualy doesnt even want ... know i have to prepare my self for some of the longest days of my life ... i have nothin to do i cant sleep im scared to i dont wan to wak eup tomorrow ... and not be able to call .... i wan tot be just held ... no words nothin ... just held.... went and gave kristal her key foor work so she could get in the store and she didnt say anythin she just walked up to me and hugged me ... like she knew ... thats what i wanted ... i wan tto wake up tomorrow with him beside me .... and to have thi be a big nightmare thatll tell him about ... and hell hold me from behind ... why do poeple fall in love ... does anybody knwo ... if you do ... TELL ME ... i dont get it .... i want him to dcome on haloween so bad ... i want dance with him ... ahhh..... why do i love him ... i know he doesnt feel the same ... one day he will ... right? .... if theres a god why is he so mean ... and if i have angels ... what the fuck are they doin sleepin all the time ... and where the fuck is cupid ... go nail tyler a couple times for me ....