just a little update.
So ive been in North Carolina now since January 4, 2009. Its not really what i thought it would be. Dont ask me what i thought it would be like. It just feels like something is missing. I dont go out as much as i like to. I dont have very many friends. I wanna hang out with the guys at work but theres always an excuse. The onyl girl friend i have here, just moved like 30 minutes away and smokes a lot. Im not really into it that much. I havent even been in the mood to drink lately. When i first moved, id be drinking a lot with the guys. Its been almost 2 months now since ive had the guys over for a drink. I probably wont even do anything for my birthday in 13 more days. I know i have to work 12-8. Even if i wanted to do something, i dont have any friends to do them with. I spend most of my free time at home, on the computer, doing nothing.
I wanna move again. Im thinking Orlando but the potential roommate hasnt said anything to me after i told her i can move. Id rather work on carnival cruise line but their damn phones arent working right for some reason. In less than 2 weeks ill mail out my disney cruise line application since you have to be 21. I was thinking california for a little bit but i think it will be too expensive for me.
I dont want a cell phone anymore. Whats the point of paying $50 a month when i barely use it. the only reason im keeping it is so i can talk to my family back home. Im thinking of getting rid of my texting. It might help my thumb anyways since i might be getting arthritus.
I have two tattoos now. one on my stomach that says 'as real as it gets' and the other is a star on my foot.
On friday the 24th, two guys from home are soppossed to come here, spend the night, then were drivin to myrtle beach to spend the day, then drive back, spend the night at my place again then leave sunday and all of us drive back to NY. Arrive to NY late sunday night. Monday chill with my family, then later on, hang out with emily. maybe go out drinking later that night with rachel, spencer and reggie. then tuesday ill probably visit movies 10 for mrs.a and pik. Then later that night katie is picking me up and were gona go see Framing Hanley and Hollywood Undead. Then the next day my flight is at 330. Hopefully i get to see some other people, like brad, when im there. I cant wait. Im suprisingly really excited to come home.
Work kinda sucks. I dont like my boss. I always feel really awkward when im alone in the office with him. Hes a racist, sexist fat man who always thinks hes right. the coworkers..their all different. There the hot one, who never texts me back, unless its work related, and even then i might not get a responce. the big guy who, lately, has been getting on my nerves. I pissed him off when we were joking around one day and it hasnt beent he same since. he ignorned me for like a week and now he bugs me by flicking the back of my head for no reason and some other stupid things. then the weird one. im getting used to his behavior now. idk whats wrong with him. But he did get me to like Qdoba. Hes sopposed to be giving me his old couch but he hasnt yet. Hopefully it gets here before the guys visit me. I got burned the other day and the seed fell into my shoe so now i have a blister on my toe. it hurts.
I did manage to find another job. it took me 3 months of calling the guy each week but i finally got it. And even before my first day i wanted to quit. I didnt though. Ive worked 2 days so far and yes i do hate it. I just dont like expo. Id rather clean off tables and do the dirty work. i dont wanna fuck peoples food up.
Ive met some guys off okcupid. but i dont really talk to them much anymore. it seems like whoever i meet online, i dont get along with as well in person. theres always the awkward silences and such. One keeps wanting to hang out and thats fine with me except he lives like 40 minutes away and he wont drive here. Theres also a lot of ugly guys on there. only a few good looking ones and of course they dont message me. I might meet more guys when i turn 21 if i go out to bars but whats the point since i have no one to go with, i dont wanna go alone. And its hard to meet a guy if your with all guys, unless its his friend.
I wish i had a friend who has money and would go on trips with me. i wanna go to so many places but i really dont think i should go alone. because i might as well go when im young and dont have children and an important job. although i dont think ill ever have a good job like that.
I wanna move again. Im thinking Orlando but the potential roommate hasnt said anything to me after i told her i can move. Id rather work on carnival cruise line but their damn phones arent working right for some reason. In less than 2 weeks ill mail out my disney cruise line application since you have to be 21. I was thinking california for a little bit but i think it will be too expensive for me.
I dont want a cell phone anymore. Whats the point of paying $50 a month when i barely use it. the only reason im keeping it is so i can talk to my family back home. Im thinking of getting rid of my texting. It might help my thumb anyways since i might be getting arthritus.
I have two tattoos now. one on my stomach that says 'as real as it gets' and the other is a star on my foot.
On friday the 24th, two guys from home are soppossed to come here, spend the night, then were drivin to myrtle beach to spend the day, then drive back, spend the night at my place again then leave sunday and all of us drive back to NY. Arrive to NY late sunday night. Monday chill with my family, then later on, hang out with emily. maybe go out drinking later that night with rachel, spencer and reggie. then tuesday ill probably visit movies 10 for mrs.a and pik. Then later that night katie is picking me up and were gona go see Framing Hanley and Hollywood Undead. Then the next day my flight is at 330. Hopefully i get to see some other people, like brad, when im there. I cant wait. Im suprisingly really excited to come home.
Work kinda sucks. I dont like my boss. I always feel really awkward when im alone in the office with him. Hes a racist, sexist fat man who always thinks hes right. the coworkers..their all different. There the hot one, who never texts me back, unless its work related, and even then i might not get a responce. the big guy who, lately, has been getting on my nerves. I pissed him off when we were joking around one day and it hasnt beent he same since. he ignorned me for like a week and now he bugs me by flicking the back of my head for no reason and some other stupid things. then the weird one. im getting used to his behavior now. idk whats wrong with him. But he did get me to like Qdoba. Hes sopposed to be giving me his old couch but he hasnt yet. Hopefully it gets here before the guys visit me. I got burned the other day and the seed fell into my shoe so now i have a blister on my toe. it hurts.
I did manage to find another job. it took me 3 months of calling the guy each week but i finally got it. And even before my first day i wanted to quit. I didnt though. Ive worked 2 days so far and yes i do hate it. I just dont like expo. Id rather clean off tables and do the dirty work. i dont wanna fuck peoples food up.
Ive met some guys off okcupid. but i dont really talk to them much anymore. it seems like whoever i meet online, i dont get along with as well in person. theres always the awkward silences and such. One keeps wanting to hang out and thats fine with me except he lives like 40 minutes away and he wont drive here. Theres also a lot of ugly guys on there. only a few good looking ones and of course they dont message me. I might meet more guys when i turn 21 if i go out to bars but whats the point since i have no one to go with, i dont wanna go alone. And its hard to meet a guy if your with all guys, unless its his friend.
I wish i had a friend who has money and would go on trips with me. i wanna go to so many places but i really dont think i should go alone. because i might as well go when im young and dont have children and an important job. although i dont think ill ever have a good job like that.