How a snuff film changed my life.
I have always said, and have thought that I would have no problem killing another human being. Well I was wrong horribly wrong.
Today I saw my first (and last) snuff film. What I thought I was downloading was bumbs fighting; no it was something entirely more different, something hauntingly different.
As I think about the short seeming harmless clip my head begins to burn and I feel as though my entire body were covered in some hot rotting flesh. In the shot there is this young man with a buzzed hair cut. A person's boot is being pressed upon the side of the man's head. A knife, a very large hunting knife is brought close to the skin, and slowly, sickeningly slowly it is pushed into the side of the man's throat. He gulps for air, his head jerks in strange ways, and the knife is brought closer to his Adams apple creating a gaping hole about 2 inches long. The strange jerks must have been caused by his spinal cored being cut apart, for his head jerks up at the very end in a strange motion, which a human being could not possibly do; then the film ends. This man was conscious, he was not comatose or killed prior to the filming, his eyes were open and he was watching the knife as it moved closer towards him.
I now realize that I could never, nor want to harm a human being. Granted if someone were to ever try to harm my family, friends or myself I would do whatever was in my power to ensure the safety of myself and the people I love. But I know now that the idea of killing another human being is completely repulsing. Sends me into fevers, and pains; I have changed my ways. Unfortunately I feel as though the image I have witnessed will never leave me; it has done me good in realizing life's beauty.
Today I saw my first (and last) snuff film. What I thought I was downloading was bumbs fighting; no it was something entirely more different, something hauntingly different.
As I think about the short seeming harmless clip my head begins to burn and I feel as though my entire body were covered in some hot rotting flesh. In the shot there is this young man with a buzzed hair cut. A person's boot is being pressed upon the side of the man's head. A knife, a very large hunting knife is brought close to the skin, and slowly, sickeningly slowly it is pushed into the side of the man's throat. He gulps for air, his head jerks in strange ways, and the knife is brought closer to his Adams apple creating a gaping hole about 2 inches long. The strange jerks must have been caused by his spinal cored being cut apart, for his head jerks up at the very end in a strange motion, which a human being could not possibly do; then the film ends. This man was conscious, he was not comatose or killed prior to the filming, his eyes were open and he was watching the knife as it moved closer towards him.
I now realize that I could never, nor want to harm a human being. Granted if someone were to ever try to harm my family, friends or myself I would do whatever was in my power to ensure the safety of myself and the people I love. But I know now that the idea of killing another human being is completely repulsing. Sends me into fevers, and pains; I have changed my ways. Unfortunately I feel as though the image I have witnessed will never leave me; it has done me good in realizing life's beauty.