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[anewcinderella]

so this is it. this is me. maybe I am dark, but maybe i don't know anything else.

I am not going to sit here and talk about the great marks i get for assignments or ponies or unicorns or making a cake out of rainbows and smiles, I want to talk about things that matter to me and things that are important and things that I don't want to say to you because you don't want to listen.

you don't want to listen
I don't want to talk

isn't that just a match made in heaven...

wait, maybe you do want to listen... maybe I am just thinking the worst of you

well fuck it, because i don't want to talk

I am trying to get it out
I am trying
and I try
and i am trying

and what's happening... this fucking dribble comes out that no one fucking understands and i feel so fucking stupid because it's not even making any sense

but the thing is that I don't even know what's happening and I don't understand

and I don't understand what I am trying to say

and I don't understand what I need to say

But i do need to say something. I know that. I do know that. I think that if i don't say anything then I will explode.