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i think i have a trust issue....or just a really bad sense of judgement. i dont know.
i love college dont get me wrong....and the options of men here are excellent and quite numerous. but i seem to push away all the ones that like me. i should be grateful that someone is actually attracted to me. but i always act the wrong way and mess it all up. i let ryan get too close and i led him on horribly. im not like that....stephen found out today that i "like him" and he likes me back....ok cool. but then out of the blue a bit later, he asked me to homecoming. i would normally agree but john asked me like 2 weeks ago. (john is my suitemates friend who visits often). well, he and i were talking today and he is gonna match my dress and everything....but now it will be weird to have a "date" when and knowing stephen likes me...but he just likes me so that shouldnt imply anything right? Gosh i dont even know my own mind,...
the other deal is....i kinda like john more. i know john about as much as i know stephen....aka not very much. and i am attracted to john more. i want to go to the dance with him. but i dont want to hurt stephen's feelings. gosh i shouldnt have said anything. but i cant take it back. omg i am so messed up. i am not attracted to stephen in that way but im willing to get to know him better b/c he is a sweet guy. john is a hottie with a body...no joke. he plays baseball....but he is funny and sweet as well. i mean, he ASKED me to the dance. i dunno if he is doin it for rebound (long story) or to be near tiff (my suitemate) or b/c he felt bad for me. i dunno. maybe he is sincere. who knows. i do know that he doesnt drink or smoke (a rarity among hot athletes). big turn on. anyways..im gonna stop and maybe talk to my girls and let them know the dealio.
Any of u guys have any advice out there??
i love college dont get me wrong....and the options of men here are excellent and quite numerous. but i seem to push away all the ones that like me. i should be grateful that someone is actually attracted to me. but i always act the wrong way and mess it all up. i let ryan get too close and i led him on horribly. im not like that....stephen found out today that i "like him" and he likes me back....ok cool. but then out of the blue a bit later, he asked me to homecoming. i would normally agree but john asked me like 2 weeks ago. (john is my suitemates friend who visits often). well, he and i were talking today and he is gonna match my dress and everything....but now it will be weird to have a "date" when and knowing stephen likes me...but he just likes me so that shouldnt imply anything right? Gosh i dont even know my own mind,...
the other deal is....i kinda like john more. i know john about as much as i know stephen....aka not very much. and i am attracted to john more. i want to go to the dance with him. but i dont want to hurt stephen's feelings. gosh i shouldnt have said anything. but i cant take it back. omg i am so messed up. i am not attracted to stephen in that way but im willing to get to know him better b/c he is a sweet guy. john is a hottie with a body...no joke. he plays baseball....but he is funny and sweet as well. i mean, he ASKED me to the dance. i dunno if he is doin it for rebound (long story) or to be near tiff (my suitemate) or b/c he felt bad for me. i dunno. maybe he is sincere. who knows. i do know that he doesnt drink or smoke (a rarity among hot athletes). big turn on. anyways..im gonna stop and maybe talk to my girls and let them know the dealio.
Any of u guys have any advice out there??