update
instead of typing it all out im just gunna post this
[09:30] gonorrheaxcore: hi
[09:31] Andyiskewl52: hi
[09:31] gonorrheaxcore: still mad at me/
[09:31] gonorrheaxcore: ?
[09:31] Andyiskewl52: yes
[09:31] Andyiskewl52: very
[09:31] gonorrheaxcore: :(
[09:32] Andyiskewl52: i dont know what to think justin
[09:32] Andyiskewl52: i took in all the information last night
[09:33] Andyiskewl52: and when i went home i thought about it all
[09:33] Andyiskewl52: and i hardly slept
[09:33] gonorrheaxcore: yeah, me too
[09:34] Andyiskewl52: and i cant seem to get over the fact that you are the one that said "Ive been thinking about it. If you came here, or I went over there (Dallas) we would end up fooling around. Dont pretend like it wouldn't happen."...... not her. if she would have said that and you agreed i would be more inclined to believe your story.
[09:34] Andyiskewl52: but your the one that brought up the fooling around
[09:34] gonorrheaxcore: i know
[09:35] gonorrheaxcore: but it would never happen
[09:35] gonorrheaxcore: i'm just a retard
[09:35] gonorrheaxcore: :(
[09:35] Andyiskewl52: yeah you are
[09:37] Andyiskewl52: i dont know where to go from here
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: forward?
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: i dunno
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: i mean
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: nothing happened
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: and nothing will happen
[09:40] gonorrheaxcore: i was just being retarded
[09:40] gonorrheaxcore: you gotta understand that
[09:43] gonorrheaxcore: which i know you don't
[09:43] gonorrheaxcore: but i can't change mistakes i made
[09:43] Andyiskewl52: when i read that shit... i went into the bathroom and i balled like a fucking baby for a couple of minutes because i just read something that totally contradicted everything our year and a half long relationship was built on. and you have to understand that
[09:44] Andyiskewl52: it totally fucking blew me away
[09:44] Andyiskewl52: i was sitting in that chair and i was just shaking like a leaf
[09:46] Andyiskewl52: waiting for you guys to finish your stupid ass conversation about stupid physcadelics
[09:46] Andyiskewl52: and i was just thinking that i was gunna vomit
[09:46] Andyiskewl52: i felt physically ill
[09:47] Andyiskewl52: i really really really want to believe you wouldnt have done anything
[09:50] Andyiskewl52: i do know that you need to stop leading this girl on. you need to tell her that its never gunna happen and your in a committed relationship and when you do i need to see it because i cant be running around thinking that your still having slirty little aim conversations with this girl because its gunna fucking kill me and its gunna kill this relatioship
[09:50] Andyiskewl52: flirty*
[09:50] gonorrheaxcore: yeah i know
[09:50] gonorrheaxcore: but like
[09:50] gonorrheaxcore: i dunno
[09:51] gonorrheaxcore: i just feel like a big asshole
[09:51] gonorrheaxcore: being an asshole has never felt this bad
[09:56] Andyiskewl52: you should. because not only have you been having inappropriated conversations behind your girlfriends back you've also been leading this girl on. and now she likes you and thinks that your gunna run off and cheat on your girlfriend for her. and that probably makes her feel powerful. because ive been the other girl before and i know.
[09:56] Andyiskewl52: and just that thought makes me furious
[10:06] gonorrheaxcore: here
[10:06] gonorrheaxcore:
aXXXXXXX: hey
gonorrheaxcore: hey, i gotta come clean with you
aXXXXXXX: ...ok...
gonorrheaxcore: i'm a total dickhead and things between us will never ever ever ever ever ever ever happen.
[10:07] gonorrheaxcore: aXXXXXXX: uh why are you saying this to me now?
gonorrheaxcore: because i wanted to make that clear
aXXXXXXX: you are an asshole
gonorrheaxcore: yep. an asshole with a girlfriend
[10:07] Andyiskewl52: justin you probably could have said that in a nicer way but im not going to complain
[10:08] gonorrheaxcore: yeah, that shows you just how much i don't give a shit about her
[10:08] Andyiskewl52: ok
[10:09] gonorrheaxcore: you're the only girl i actually care anything about, besides like people i've known since i was 5 and shit
[10:10] gonorrheaxcore: whatever it takes to prove that to you
[10:10] gonorrheaxcore: i'll do it
[10:11] Andyiskewl52: okay. i believe you.
and a little bit later
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: kinda like this was never gonna happen
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: because i made the decision to not let it happen
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: look
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: i'm a guy
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: i'm gonna think other girls are hot
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: i can't help that
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: there is nothing i can do to stop thinking girls are hot
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: but the important thing is, i don't go home with them, i don't love them, i don't do things with them i hate doing
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: i do those things with you
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: because YOU are my girlfriend
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: and you are the one i love
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: and you are the one i want to be with
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: and if i didn't we wouldn't still be together
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: and yeah
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: i made a mistake
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: that happens
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: i lost sight of what i really wanted/needed and did something stupid
[11:26] gonorrheaxcore: but before i did something really really really really stupid, i stopped myself
[11:26] gonorrheaxcore: and thought about it
[11:26] gonorrheaxcore: and realized that it wasn't worth losing something amazing that i already have over something that probably won't be amazing
[11:27] Andyiskewl52: i would have been really pissed if you never cheated on any of your other girlfriends but you did on me, the one you loved the most
[11:27] gonorrheaxcore: yeah
[11:27] gonorrheaxcore: but i didn't
[11:27] gonorrheaxcore: and i never have
[11:28] gonorrheaxcore: and as long as i don't go braindead i never will
[09:30] gonorrheaxcore: hi
[09:31] Andyiskewl52: hi
[09:31] gonorrheaxcore: still mad at me/
[09:31] gonorrheaxcore: ?
[09:31] Andyiskewl52: yes
[09:31] Andyiskewl52: very
[09:31] gonorrheaxcore: :(
[09:32] Andyiskewl52: i dont know what to think justin
[09:32] Andyiskewl52: i took in all the information last night
[09:33] Andyiskewl52: and when i went home i thought about it all
[09:33] Andyiskewl52: and i hardly slept
[09:33] gonorrheaxcore: yeah, me too
[09:34] Andyiskewl52: and i cant seem to get over the fact that you are the one that said "Ive been thinking about it. If you came here, or I went over there (Dallas) we would end up fooling around. Dont pretend like it wouldn't happen."...... not her. if she would have said that and you agreed i would be more inclined to believe your story.
[09:34] Andyiskewl52: but your the one that brought up the fooling around
[09:34] gonorrheaxcore: i know
[09:35] gonorrheaxcore: but it would never happen
[09:35] gonorrheaxcore: i'm just a retard
[09:35] gonorrheaxcore: :(
[09:35] Andyiskewl52: yeah you are
[09:37] Andyiskewl52: i dont know where to go from here
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: forward?
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: i dunno
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: i mean
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: nothing happened
[09:39] gonorrheaxcore: and nothing will happen
[09:40] gonorrheaxcore: i was just being retarded
[09:40] gonorrheaxcore: you gotta understand that
[09:43] gonorrheaxcore: which i know you don't
[09:43] gonorrheaxcore: but i can't change mistakes i made
[09:43] Andyiskewl52: when i read that shit... i went into the bathroom and i balled like a fucking baby for a couple of minutes because i just read something that totally contradicted everything our year and a half long relationship was built on. and you have to understand that
[09:44] Andyiskewl52: it totally fucking blew me away
[09:44] Andyiskewl52: i was sitting in that chair and i was just shaking like a leaf
[09:46] Andyiskewl52: waiting for you guys to finish your stupid ass conversation about stupid physcadelics
[09:46] Andyiskewl52: and i was just thinking that i was gunna vomit
[09:46] Andyiskewl52: i felt physically ill
[09:47] Andyiskewl52: i really really really want to believe you wouldnt have done anything
[09:50] Andyiskewl52: i do know that you need to stop leading this girl on. you need to tell her that its never gunna happen and your in a committed relationship and when you do i need to see it because i cant be running around thinking that your still having slirty little aim conversations with this girl because its gunna fucking kill me and its gunna kill this relatioship
[09:50] Andyiskewl52: flirty*
[09:50] gonorrheaxcore: yeah i know
[09:50] gonorrheaxcore: but like
[09:50] gonorrheaxcore: i dunno
[09:51] gonorrheaxcore: i just feel like a big asshole
[09:51] gonorrheaxcore: being an asshole has never felt this bad
[09:56] Andyiskewl52: you should. because not only have you been having inappropriated conversations behind your girlfriends back you've also been leading this girl on. and now she likes you and thinks that your gunna run off and cheat on your girlfriend for her. and that probably makes her feel powerful. because ive been the other girl before and i know.
[09:56] Andyiskewl52: and just that thought makes me furious
[10:06] gonorrheaxcore: here
[10:06] gonorrheaxcore:
aXXXXXXX: hey
gonorrheaxcore: hey, i gotta come clean with you
aXXXXXXX: ...ok...
gonorrheaxcore: i'm a total dickhead and things between us will never ever ever ever ever ever ever happen.
[10:07] gonorrheaxcore: aXXXXXXX: uh why are you saying this to me now?
gonorrheaxcore: because i wanted to make that clear
aXXXXXXX: you are an asshole
gonorrheaxcore: yep. an asshole with a girlfriend
[10:07] Andyiskewl52: justin you probably could have said that in a nicer way but im not going to complain
[10:08] gonorrheaxcore: yeah, that shows you just how much i don't give a shit about her
[10:08] Andyiskewl52: ok
[10:09] gonorrheaxcore: you're the only girl i actually care anything about, besides like people i've known since i was 5 and shit
[10:10] gonorrheaxcore: whatever it takes to prove that to you
[10:10] gonorrheaxcore: i'll do it
[10:11] Andyiskewl52: okay. i believe you.
and a little bit later
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: kinda like this was never gonna happen
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: because i made the decision to not let it happen
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: look
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: i'm a guy
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: i'm gonna think other girls are hot
[11:23] gonorrheaxcore: i can't help that
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: there is nothing i can do to stop thinking girls are hot
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: but the important thing is, i don't go home with them, i don't love them, i don't do things with them i hate doing
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: i do those things with you
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: because YOU are my girlfriend
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: and you are the one i love
[11:24] gonorrheaxcore: and you are the one i want to be with
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: and if i didn't we wouldn't still be together
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: and yeah
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: i made a mistake
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: that happens
[11:25] gonorrheaxcore: i lost sight of what i really wanted/needed and did something stupid
[11:26] gonorrheaxcore: but before i did something really really really really stupid, i stopped myself
[11:26] gonorrheaxcore: and thought about it
[11:26] gonorrheaxcore: and realized that it wasn't worth losing something amazing that i already have over something that probably won't be amazing
[11:27] Andyiskewl52: i would have been really pissed if you never cheated on any of your other girlfriends but you did on me, the one you loved the most
[11:27] gonorrheaxcore: yeah
[11:27] gonorrheaxcore: but i didn't
[11:27] gonorrheaxcore: and i never have
[11:28] gonorrheaxcore: and as long as i don't go braindead i never will