"I didn't know, I didn't care. But now I know, now I know. Explain it to me again, like I care."
I thought I should post something to sort of even out my last, less than happy entry because I don't want my most recent entry to be something like that.
Plus, let it be a lesson to me to not write in here when I'm feeling exceptionally emotional (because, let's face it, I'm always atleast a little bit emotional, but it's when I'm more emotional than usual that livejournal should shut me out).
After working for nearly 8 hours this morning, I was thinking to myself: "What else would I have done today? I really need to stop bitching about working everyday." As I thought about this more, I realized that I don't want to stop complaining about work.
Very simply, I bitch about work for two reasons:
1.) I love to complain about things just because I think it's fun to be annoying, and whining really is the most obnoxious thing in the world. I know that, obviously all of you know that if you hang out with me, and that makes me even more inclined to do it.
2.) Work really is ruining my social life. I don't think I need to remind anyone about the tremendously active social scene in which I participate (but let's just say it usually includes Ashley, gummy bears and my living room). But the idea of work at 5am hangs over my head all day, which can be really daunting.
Which brings me to the reason I'm writing in here at 8:30pm on a Friday night.
I had absolutely zero motivation to actually leave my house tonight because the knowledge of work in about 8 hours quickly snuffs out the few shards of social skills I've somehow managed to collect. So after telling my friend "No, I'm a nerd and think I need to stay in tonight," I ended up sitting in my basement staring at a computer screen.
The thing is, it was probably a good trade because my mood will be much better tomorrow if I stay in than if I were to go out and, say, party with people I don't really want to be around.
I'm in a significantly better place concerning a lot of things today (much more so than yesterday). I feel so much better about things today, and sometimes I'm really amazed at the power of prayer. If you talked to me at all yesterday or the day before you would probably be amazed as well at the shift in my disposition.
It's slowly nearing 9pm now, which reminds me of just how early 5am is to someone who has been "burning the candle at both ends" as my active social activities and work schedule have been referred to.
So now I'm about done and I think I'm going to bed. I may choose my courses for next year before I fall asleep, because I want to take all of them. So yea, just kidding, I won't do that.