"It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me... And I know I'll never change my ways."
I don't know what I'm going to do next year.
I know I write about that in just about every entry, when I ramble off my new "plan."
If it wasn't such a huge decision.
I don't know if staying in Boston is a good idea.
Because I was so sure of it.
But maybe it would do me some good to get away from here.
Isn't that what college is about? Getting out and trying new things?
Ugh.
Answers would be good. And I know eventually I'll get them.
I went to this service this morning at a monastary in Western Massachusetts and it was so cool (as well as a refreshing break from the nearly unbearable retreat i was at).
At the end of the service they turn all of the lights off, and since we had gone in at 6am, it was dark outside when we got there. Then I opened my eyes, and right when I did, someone opened the door and the sunlight all came in. And it was so gold.
I know that doesn't really sound great to anyone, but it was just so amazing.
I wish I could put everything I'm feeling into words, because I want to share it all. Not just Ashley, with the wonderful, Jesus-filled advice I give her.
I've been very level-headed lately. Aside from the college thing, it seems like things have been really clear lately.
It's a nice feeling.
And I didn't mean that in an I've-got-it-all-figured-out way. I just mean I've had some sort of clarity or inner-peace thing going on.
I must go find something to amuse myself for this wonderful, snow-filled night inside.
I know I write about that in just about every entry, when I ramble off my new "plan."
If it wasn't such a huge decision.
I don't know if staying in Boston is a good idea.
Because I was so sure of it.
But maybe it would do me some good to get away from here.
Isn't that what college is about? Getting out and trying new things?
Ugh.
Answers would be good. And I know eventually I'll get them.
I went to this service this morning at a monastary in Western Massachusetts and it was so cool (as well as a refreshing break from the nearly unbearable retreat i was at).
At the end of the service they turn all of the lights off, and since we had gone in at 6am, it was dark outside when we got there. Then I opened my eyes, and right when I did, someone opened the door and the sunlight all came in. And it was so gold.
I know that doesn't really sound great to anyone, but it was just so amazing.
I wish I could put everything I'm feeling into words, because I want to share it all. Not just Ashley, with the wonderful, Jesus-filled advice I give her.
I've been very level-headed lately. Aside from the college thing, it seems like things have been really clear lately.
It's a nice feeling.
And I didn't mean that in an I've-got-it-all-figured-out way. I just mean I've had some sort of clarity or inner-peace thing going on.
I must go find something to amuse myself for this wonderful, snow-filled night inside.