12-12-12
Last time in my life it will be a day like today, with all those repeating numbers. I have it in my head, it is a goal, that I will be productive and good today. Library time, study, work. Yes.
Carmel and I are back to being friends, and this is a very good thing. We have talked a little about queer identity and I know we have in the past as well, but she seemed vastly confused about why I would not want to date a femme woman. When I think about the women that I have dated and have left a great impression on me: J, A, E, K especially... they are all androgynous. Why should this be surprising? It makes great sense to me... and yet all I can remember is Jess telling me over ten years ago now that I can't date a femme because I was a femme (which I have never been). Is it something about the South? And why, is it safer for us?
I find myself falling deeply for a 22 yr old undergraduate. It's embarrassing, really. I suppose that's not too young, but I can't help but feel it is. Like an old lech. Leah says that she knows people who are looking for a partner; maybe i'll meet someone at her party.
BUT for now, let's focus on: getting involved in the community, getting a good start on my thesis, reading, cultivating interesting, running! And my cats, of course. :)
Carmel and I are back to being friends, and this is a very good thing. We have talked a little about queer identity and I know we have in the past as well, but she seemed vastly confused about why I would not want to date a femme woman. When I think about the women that I have dated and have left a great impression on me: J, A, E, K especially... they are all androgynous. Why should this be surprising? It makes great sense to me... and yet all I can remember is Jess telling me over ten years ago now that I can't date a femme because I was a femme (which I have never been). Is it something about the South? And why, is it safer for us?
I find myself falling deeply for a 22 yr old undergraduate. It's embarrassing, really. I suppose that's not too young, but I can't help but feel it is. Like an old lech. Leah says that she knows people who are looking for a partner; maybe i'll meet someone at her party.
BUT for now, let's focus on: getting involved in the community, getting a good start on my thesis, reading, cultivating interesting, running! And my cats, of course. :)