Nov 11, 2002 21:19
I decided to try a rather moronic feat tonight. I suppose it fits in with my whole I want to change, I want to be someone, not a bum philosophy as of late. But, I think its also in part due to my conversation with Norah, where at one point as I was wandering to the fridge to grab a beer, I breezed by a mirror, then stepped back, looked and just shook my head. My attire at the time, was a Mogwai t-shirt stating blur are shite, a little worn for wear brown cords that are now splitting up the side of the legs, blue flip-flops and for some reason sunglasses. This is pretty much what I look like everyday, I guess most of my friends look pretty much the same, which to some extent might explain why we're all still bachelors, well, that and the struggling musician thing that few women seem to get. Anyway, I am supposed to see Norah tomorrow and our plans are to bum around, which luckily I'm quite capable of. But, the extent of bum which she thought she was in for probably isn't exactly the one that I see when I look in the mirror, I mean I think very few people appreciate "my look", and its not as though I want to change it for people, but what the hell am I rambling about anyway. The thing, the thing is this, evidently the mere thought of spending time with a girl completely fucks me up. Now, for the greatly anticipated moronic andrew occurrence of the day, possibly week, I decided, and oh I thought it was a great idea, to go for a run. The beer in my hand, my appearance and most likely the anticipatory day with the girl made me harm my body, seriously. I think the last time I went for a run was probably sometime in high school. It was just a very stupid thing to do. Perhaps what is possibly more idiotic is this post, since she will see it and will gasp and then likely stand me up tomorrow for being such an utter fool. That would probably be the safest thing, since I'm only likely to further damage and embarrass myself from this point on.
Also, I thought I should mention that after still being somewhat around here after a couple months, which I really had little expectation of, I've decided to panhandle the five dollars to invest in the paid account, unfortunately for you, now you have to see more of me.