update i guess
i wish i could get over being so bummed about matt.... he really meant a lot to me. but i just have to accept reality. i mean it's to the point where i dont cry but maybe once in a while but i just misss him so much. it's so unsettled. but that's my life.
my new job is good. it's hectic and stressful and full of ghetto people, but they are amusing.
some people in life just ya cant get rid of... the guy i used to sit with at my first job is in my training class. he had a one time thing way back in the day like when i was 19. now he's married to the same girl who was his girlfriend then and there's some tension in the air. like i cant look at him right cuz i cant believe i did that back then. mistake but hey i guess that's what most of my life has been lol
weird- some people you think you'll never see again.
my kids are good- alandre will be 7 in 1-23. they both got report cards and alandre's was really good but adrianna needs some work in academics so i've been working with her more. the conference i had with her teachers they told me even in 2 weeks she's improved a lot. i guess school finally clicked. she had only been 5 for 6 days when school started. alandre was 5 1/2 when school started for him.
anyway it's been crazy i've been trying to keep in contact with the few people in RL that i really care about. finally got my phone to work last week. my phone number is in the groups message board. i have cingular so it's free if you have it too.
ugh i hate familiness. everyone in my family on my dad's side is soo happy except me. i mean i know happinesss in life is what you make of it. i agree i have a good bunch of very good friends but i am just generally not happy. probably has something to do with all these mistakes i've made in life. i'll tell you though becoming chronically ill has made me slow down a lot and not worry about a lot of things and just work on me and the kids. i jsut constantly regret choices i've made and how i've treated people, etc. It's so great my brother has been around, he's one of the only people i can talk to and he understands either cuz he experienced it too at the same time or he just really knows me and how i think. he's been sooo nice to me helping me so much with the kids.
We did our traditional spend the night at my dad and his wife's house. my brother was here for a while and my stepsister and her fiancee (getting married in march) Now I'm waiting for them to get it together cuz we always go to this diner for breakfast (lame i know LOL). Sometimes you have to put your coolness aside for your childrens enjoyment. Like this and the fact that i have to take my kids to chuck e cheese for my sons birthday. (My stepmom "jokes" that i better not be in the hossy this time since i was for Adrianna's birthday and they took the kids)
i'm going to monday night raw on january 9th LOL in Hershey, PA so look for me if you watch it LOL
The Big Show is mah baby daddy. hehehe
Hope everyone is having a great christmas. *HUGS*
my new job is good. it's hectic and stressful and full of ghetto people, but they are amusing.
some people in life just ya cant get rid of... the guy i used to sit with at my first job is in my training class. he had a one time thing way back in the day like when i was 19. now he's married to the same girl who was his girlfriend then and there's some tension in the air. like i cant look at him right cuz i cant believe i did that back then. mistake but hey i guess that's what most of my life has been lol
weird- some people you think you'll never see again.
my kids are good- alandre will be 7 in 1-23. they both got report cards and alandre's was really good but adrianna needs some work in academics so i've been working with her more. the conference i had with her teachers they told me even in 2 weeks she's improved a lot. i guess school finally clicked. she had only been 5 for 6 days when school started. alandre was 5 1/2 when school started for him.
anyway it's been crazy i've been trying to keep in contact with the few people in RL that i really care about. finally got my phone to work last week. my phone number is in the groups message board. i have cingular so it's free if you have it too.
ugh i hate familiness. everyone in my family on my dad's side is soo happy except me. i mean i know happinesss in life is what you make of it. i agree i have a good bunch of very good friends but i am just generally not happy. probably has something to do with all these mistakes i've made in life. i'll tell you though becoming chronically ill has made me slow down a lot and not worry about a lot of things and just work on me and the kids. i jsut constantly regret choices i've made and how i've treated people, etc. It's so great my brother has been around, he's one of the only people i can talk to and he understands either cuz he experienced it too at the same time or he just really knows me and how i think. he's been sooo nice to me helping me so much with the kids.
We did our traditional spend the night at my dad and his wife's house. my brother was here for a while and my stepsister and her fiancee (getting married in march) Now I'm waiting for them to get it together cuz we always go to this diner for breakfast (lame i know LOL). Sometimes you have to put your coolness aside for your childrens enjoyment. Like this and the fact that i have to take my kids to chuck e cheese for my sons birthday. (My stepmom "jokes" that i better not be in the hossy this time since i was for Adrianna's birthday and they took the kids)
i'm going to monday night raw on january 9th LOL in Hershey, PA so look for me if you watch it LOL
The Big Show is mah baby daddy. hehehe
Hope everyone is having a great christmas. *HUGS*