shoot... I think getting older is one of those things... the whirlwind of current events tugs your psyche out of its happy corners. *shrug* I can say I've felt this way before... for me, at least, getting out of it took questions and some 'meditation' time (good grief, that term is so over-loaded... don't think I'm getting religious or anything).
I sat down at one time a few semesters ago... listened to some old music I didn't really like anymore, but back when I was a kid... I liked it. And I daydreamed for the first time in a while for that semester... I think I started to drift back to childhood dreams I had, and it was like as if my earlier brain went *THWACK* into the back of my head, screeched around my cerebellum, winding up my brain stem, around my occipital lobe, and then T-boning my hippocampus. Or something like that. (can you tell I've been 'over-educated'? Pah... useless words! *shakes fist*). I dunno how it happens, but if you let your mind wander and sort of rest... then the stronger urges inside start to tingle... it's like how your memory is a living thing. It really is! I mean, since your brain is alive, and all. Unless you're a zombie, I guess. But hey, think about what you used to live for. College always makes you forget things. And be happy, because you might have never found out how dear and important some things are to you until you forget them.
I really believe you can choose to be who you want to be. But perhaps sitting down and daydreaming? I dunno... it worked for me. I can't offer true 'help'... only give you a hint or two and maybe it'll help.
Well, that, and I'll pray for you. (Ooop! I was doing good till I said that. *runs away*)
I sat down at one time a few semesters ago... listened to some old music I didn't really like anymore, but back when I was a kid... I liked it. And I daydreamed for the first time in a while for that semester... I think I started to drift back to childhood dreams I had, and it was like as if my earlier brain went *THWACK* into the back of my head, screeched around my cerebellum, winding up my brain stem, around my occipital lobe, and then T-boning my hippocampus. Or something like that. (can you tell I've been 'over-educated'? Pah... useless words! *shakes fist*). I dunno how it happens, but if you let your mind wander and sort of rest... then the stronger urges inside start to tingle... it's like how your memory is a living thing. It really is! I mean, since your brain is alive, and all. Unless you're a zombie, I guess. But hey, think about what you used to live for. College always makes you forget things. And be happy, because you might have never found out how dear and important some things are to you until you forget them.
I really believe you can choose to be who you want to be. But perhaps sitting down and daydreaming? I dunno... it worked for me. I can't offer true 'help'... only give you a hint or two and maybe it'll help.
Well, that, and I'll pray for you. (Ooop! I was doing good till I said that. *runs away*)
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