Every day I do something I regret,
something that doesn't do justice to God.

Mostly it's in what I say
But also in what I don't say ( Read more... )

Flashes of electricity
Jolt across the lowering eyelids.
Closed eyes, blinking.

( I don't want you to feel bad for me. )

The translation is difficult.

Theatre module next term. I wonder how I'll do?

I always have these illusions that I can do everything as well as I want to or let myself.
Maybe this glass ceiling with my essays is a proof that I am not half as good as I think I am...

Seriously, who did I think I am? Some polymath?
I'm just a jack.

Do my insecurities stem from jealousy ( Read more... )

 I have so much to say it's too much ( Read more... )

I feel way too odd right now...
I feel like I'm getting disillusioned with my life as it is right now, and that things are slowly disintegrating and I'm losing my mind and sanity and my reality and logic are falling apart.
All this is very strange; there is no reason for me to feel this way at all. None whatsoever.

Maybe it's the caffeine coupled with ( Read more... )

I want the term to end.
I want the term to end.
I want the term to end!!!

I just wanna rest and relax.
No more essays; pure social life, pure revision on my own time, own target.

GAAAH.

At least I have my junk food with me for now as I essay. Lol

God, please give me the strength to persevere.
:(

I am sick and tired of my essay
and I am really about to give up.

It's so far past the deadline that I find it easier to not complete it altogether than to work against myself.

Doesn't help as well that I am so, so tired by the week + weekend in general.

Sigh.
I want to worship Him with my work, but I've ( Read more... )