I love life passionately as I know it now

[andlessly]

but every once in a while I would see what I've lost or left behind and feel that regret/pity.

I'm mainly referring to photography.

I've almost completely left it all behind and it saddens me. :(
It used to be such a big part of my life,
and now as I see others catching on to the science and art of photography
I only feel the huge vacuum left.

Many times I've wished that I had more artistic talent;
that I lived in a more artistically saturated environment;
that Singapore gave more opportunities for me to develop such interests...

But alas, it seems like it wasn't God's plan for me?

I'm just sad at what once was but is no more.

Nevertheless, life is good.
My course is marvellous and I love every single bit of it (even if I whine and complain about my essays and work).
York is amazing despite the typical English weather
and God has been and still is mind-blowingly awesome.

I've learnt mountains of new things about this world, myself, history, God, and people..., and life.
My Christian walk has been strengthened and God continually excites and rejuvenates me.
To top it all off, I have a wonderful boyfriend now. ;)
In short, coming overseas for higher education has definitely been one of my best moves in life.

Life can't get any better
except if I were a talented photographer with total tools and equipment and knowledge and time......
Meh. :/