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Aug 02, 2007 02:29


i like falling asleep crying.  i like being able to be honest with myself about where i am and somehow get to the point where i'm comfortable enough to let go.  that fluid part between conscious aching and worry free sleep.  i woke up in a panic tonight, drenched in sweat.  it was completely dark (which working overnights, i have only seen light penetrating through the window blinds) and i gasped for air.  my heart was racing and i didn't know what woke me.  i immediately jumped out of bed and ran downstairs with the four barking dogs, expecting to see someone waiting at the front door.  nobody was there.

i got a latin salsa workout tape.  i'll do just about anything to learn how to merenge.

i have a second interview on friday, immediately following a free concert.  it'll be my first group interview.

i feel like i've been on a really shitty summer vacation.  i had joked back in may that i wanted to take july off, maybe even august, if possible.  i used to love the summer but all i can think of is how great the fall will be.

i just put on one of joelle's sweaters and it smells like my first girlfriend.  who would have thought that i'd still remember what she smells like after nearly 7 years.

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