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Tonight is the Formal. It's a Masquerade Ball, and a pretty durn good one, too. The place looks beautiful - I'll post pictures later - but I'm taking a break in my office. It's running from 8 to midnight, so it's about the time that I take a little break from things. Sort of reminds me of my parties we have at my house...usually halfway through, when it starts getting really crazy, I start to fade out, lose my energy, disappear.
Well, we got to work at our usual 8:30a so with the event tonight it's a little crazy. I'm making a goodbye DVD for Amanda that's taking forever but also looks amazing, except that it's not done yet. I think I'll be coming in tomorrow morning - early - to finish it.
Aside,
Sometimes I think I should use commas instead of dashes. I think I'll be coming in tomorrow morning, early, to finish it. I wonder when I got in the habit of using dashes. Emily Dickenson uses them a lot, but I've been using dashes since high school, and at that point my friends and I called her "Emily Suck My Dickenson."
Still not sure how I'm feeling about Amanda leaving. The night I found out, it snowballed into a bad panic attack with lots of crying and suicidal thoughts (typical) and I stupidly asked Jen to help me deal with it and I looked like a fool, a crying mess, and she didn't even know what to do or say. Oh boy. I love putting my friends in situations they can't handle or don't like to handle. And then we'll never talk about it again.
But I'm feeling okay about it now, but I don't think it's hit me yet. I'll be taking on a lot of Amanda's projects, which is good. I kind of feel like I should be applying for her job (I'd be a shoo-in) but I don't know how I feel about staying in Florida (I've already told so many people I'm leaving).
Such a mess, such a mess.
Well, we got to work at our usual 8:30a so with the event tonight it's a little crazy. I'm making a goodbye DVD for Amanda that's taking forever but also looks amazing, except that it's not done yet. I think I'll be coming in tomorrow morning - early - to finish it.
Aside,
Sometimes I think I should use commas instead of dashes. I think I'll be coming in tomorrow morning, early, to finish it. I wonder when I got in the habit of using dashes. Emily Dickenson uses them a lot, but I've been using dashes since high school, and at that point my friends and I called her "Emily Suck My Dickenson."
Still not sure how I'm feeling about Amanda leaving. The night I found out, it snowballed into a bad panic attack with lots of crying and suicidal thoughts (typical) and I stupidly asked Jen to help me deal with it and I looked like a fool, a crying mess, and she didn't even know what to do or say. Oh boy. I love putting my friends in situations they can't handle or don't like to handle. And then we'll never talk about it again.
But I'm feeling okay about it now, but I don't think it's hit me yet. I'll be taking on a lot of Amanda's projects, which is good. I kind of feel like I should be applying for her job (I'd be a shoo-in) but I don't know how I feel about staying in Florida (I've already told so many people I'm leaving).
Such a mess, such a mess.