How Sad Is This Thought
How sad is this thought that I have not hooked up with a guy when I wasn't drunk in a long time. :( So I thought this time would be different, but once again it appears that it's not...i can't seem to find a good guy...I don't want to look online. So I actually hooked up with this guy I was sorta friends with, we were cool anyway but we hadn't chilled in a while. So me&him and our 2 other friends (who are a couple) went to this girls house to party it up lol...so we drank and smoked some weed and this guy and I ended up hooking up...he said def call me, etc, "I'm gonna call you" he said and all this other bullshit, but he never did as of yet...so my friend Tiff (who I met him thru) told me to leave him an angry voicemail, but I was like "should I be angry, I'm not his girl..." so I left an annoyed message and said that I understood he was busy, I don't care, but at least give me a call and tell me so I can make other plans...I'm not waiting around all day. So I was like "gimmie a call when you get this cuz it's pretty fucked up" the fact that I called him 3 times today and he didn't even have the decency to call me back once. So now I guess since I smoked I'm getting a bit angrier, I'll be even more pissed if he doesn't call at all tonight...and if he doesn't and I see him online...oooooooooooooooh I'll let him have it.
Rant over...Caitlin is comin over anyway, we gotta go see Mike cuz he owes her for green. So then we're gonna prob come back hit the bong a bit or roll a blunt...who knows. I just don't wanna chill w/ Mike if he's with his black friends...Why can't I find a nice white boy? I'm not racist, but I just don't find black men and that culutural lifestyle attractive in anyway really...not that they're not good or nice people, it's just my personal preference. Oh well, let people talk...it's not like I'm even ruling it out, there are some black men who I've found attractive...but it's just not my thing. Anyway, I hit my bong already so now I'm rambling...I just wish this guy would call me...why don't things ever work out in my favor...I can't get past 1 night of hooking up with guys...even though they say nice things about me...that's the thing, this guy tells our friends he wants to chill w/ me, but then he doesn't call. Whatever man.
Rant over...Caitlin is comin over anyway, we gotta go see Mike cuz he owes her for green. So then we're gonna prob come back hit the bong a bit or roll a blunt...who knows. I just don't wanna chill w/ Mike if he's with his black friends...Why can't I find a nice white boy? I'm not racist, but I just don't find black men and that culutural lifestyle attractive in anyway really...not that they're not good or nice people, it's just my personal preference. Oh well, let people talk...it's not like I'm even ruling it out, there are some black men who I've found attractive...but it's just not my thing. Anyway, I hit my bong already so now I'm rambling...I just wish this guy would call me...why don't things ever work out in my favor...I can't get past 1 night of hooking up with guys...even though they say nice things about me...that's the thing, this guy tells our friends he wants to chill w/ me, but then he doesn't call. Whatever man.