why can't I do this...?
Wow I am so cool..NOT. Okay so it is sooo hard to get back into the like schedule of fasting and restraining! I am seriously getting so discouraged.I always end up either really concentrating on dieting and never exercise or end up just obsessively exercising and eating whatever I want and feeling guilty the whole time.I think I need to just like do a SERIOUS fast where I can remember how good it feels to know you are losing weight. I met a girl online and we are going to be ana partners so I am seriously pumped cause she is my age. I keep like fasting throughout the day but then like binge soo bad at night!Help!I started a job that I go to after Cheer practice and it is at a restraunt so I am surrounded by food all evening/night so by the time I get off I am so hungry(or more think I am).I need to just really get serious about this again, I miss Ana alot! I know it sounds dumb but I really do. I am going to go look at journals and proana.Later