I am floating, and soon may drift away.
This is where I am at 5:15 am on sunday morning.... I want to say all these things and more to you, and I am not taking the easy way out, its just that things are too complicated right now, and I hate that. I dont like the situation you are in, and I want to change it. I will accept things as they are for now, and just hold out hope that things can change, please.
I have just gotten home from seeing you. Tonite was just an amazing time, again. When I am with you, when I talk to you, when we are together, time goes by way too fast. When I am with you I feel light, I feel like I am where I am supposed to be, and that nothing and no one else is there. I only see and hear you, and thats all that matters. You are so like me - sarcastic, cynical, defensive, somewhat reserved. And also like me I think you are guarding yourself to an extent.
The ride back home after I dropped you off at your place was long, and I spent the time listening to the songs we were listening to in the bar and when we were driving around. I can still smell your perfume on my clothes, I can feel your hands on mine and it is comforting. I wish I could have held you one more time, or fallen asleep next to you and woken up with you. This isnt about sex, its more then that, I am comfortable around you, relaxed. I actually like the person I am when I am with you - you bring out the best in me, and you make me better. I never have to explan anything and you are always willing to listen to me ramble on wheter you get it initially or not. You make everything better and I am lucky to know you.
I think I am just a lost cause right now, I am so in love with you, and things are so confusing when we arent together. I dont know where things go from here, and I dont know what comes next. If its nothing then so be it, I just want this mess of a love note to be out there, you wont read it and thats ok. I just want it to be written down, as jumbled and disjointed as it is. I was coming up with phrases and things to include as I was nearing home, and now I cant think of any of them. I really need to get to bed.
Sleep well, I am absolutley crazy about you and I cant wait until I can talk to you again.
I have just gotten home from seeing you. Tonite was just an amazing time, again. When I am with you, when I talk to you, when we are together, time goes by way too fast. When I am with you I feel light, I feel like I am where I am supposed to be, and that nothing and no one else is there. I only see and hear you, and thats all that matters. You are so like me - sarcastic, cynical, defensive, somewhat reserved. And also like me I think you are guarding yourself to an extent.
The ride back home after I dropped you off at your place was long, and I spent the time listening to the songs we were listening to in the bar and when we were driving around. I can still smell your perfume on my clothes, I can feel your hands on mine and it is comforting. I wish I could have held you one more time, or fallen asleep next to you and woken up with you. This isnt about sex, its more then that, I am comfortable around you, relaxed. I actually like the person I am when I am with you - you bring out the best in me, and you make me better. I never have to explan anything and you are always willing to listen to me ramble on wheter you get it initially or not. You make everything better and I am lucky to know you.
I think I am just a lost cause right now, I am so in love with you, and things are so confusing when we arent together. I dont know where things go from here, and I dont know what comes next. If its nothing then so be it, I just want this mess of a love note to be out there, you wont read it and thats ok. I just want it to be written down, as jumbled and disjointed as it is. I was coming up with phrases and things to include as I was nearing home, and now I cant think of any of them. I really need to get to bed.
Sleep well, I am absolutley crazy about you and I cant wait until I can talk to you again.