Just... a moment
It takes but a moment for life's changes to happen. Whether it's meeting new friends, a relative passing away, the birth of a child, and accident that puts you in the hospital, learning you have cancer, etc.
It only takes a moment for something to change your life... forever.
Amazing how such a moment can change you when it makes you happy. When you meet that special someone who you know will make you happy for the rest of your life. It's that feeling of comfort that you've NEVER felt with anyone else. Not a single soul has made you feel worth or desire or complete comfort like that one special person. And you pray to God that they feel the same way and that God allows you both to spend the rest of your lives together. Amazing how much in common you have but there are a few differences that is more than tolerable and rather cute.
But it's also amazing when all those hopes and dreams and that fantastic feeling can be shattered in an instant... in a moment. What pain, what feelings of the unknown you begin to feel. Do you doubt yourself? Was it something you said? What was the last thing you said to them? Why didn't you say more? Why are they silent? Do they not wish to see or talk to you? Has something happened to them?
It's amazing that a moment can take forever. How it can make you feel as though you are the luckiest person in the world or... it can torment and torture you with fear and sadness.
I had a taste of a normal life I could have.
I fell in love with a man whom I adore and was comfortable around. For the first time in my life I felt as though life was going right. He became my everything. I adored though not to obsession but to a point of treating him equally. With respect, care, sweetness, thought. I enjoyed chatting with him daily. It helped me. Loved gazing at his face via the webcam... granted in person was FAR better. I still can smell his lingering scent and I long for him. hoping that someday I'll be able to see him face to face, gaze into his gorgeous blue eyes again, to hold him, to be wrapped up in that sensual but sweetly slow kiss. To feel my fingers in his hair, to feel him next to me.
I wasn't shy around him, I didn't feel as though I was taken advantage of or by no means was I uncomfortable. No matter what we did.
I miss him terribly. I long to hear his voice. A mere couple days... it's amazing what such withdraw from the love of your life can do to you.
Yes... I really do believe he was THE One I was waiting for.
It's a cruel, cruel trick of God and the Fates to have only given me a taste for barely 3 months. To give me the man I wished for and then to just take him away from me. It's cruel and unfair. I shed tears in hope that I shall see and hear from him again.
If I must go on without him... I shall. But I will never be the same. My heart belongs to one... and I know who that one is now. God hear my plight... don't deny me happiness. I want that happiness for more than just a moment in time.
It only takes a moment for something to change your life... forever.
Amazing how such a moment can change you when it makes you happy. When you meet that special someone who you know will make you happy for the rest of your life. It's that feeling of comfort that you've NEVER felt with anyone else. Not a single soul has made you feel worth or desire or complete comfort like that one special person. And you pray to God that they feel the same way and that God allows you both to spend the rest of your lives together. Amazing how much in common you have but there are a few differences that is more than tolerable and rather cute.
But it's also amazing when all those hopes and dreams and that fantastic feeling can be shattered in an instant... in a moment. What pain, what feelings of the unknown you begin to feel. Do you doubt yourself? Was it something you said? What was the last thing you said to them? Why didn't you say more? Why are they silent? Do they not wish to see or talk to you? Has something happened to them?
It's amazing that a moment can take forever. How it can make you feel as though you are the luckiest person in the world or... it can torment and torture you with fear and sadness.
I had a taste of a normal life I could have.
I fell in love with a man whom I adore and was comfortable around. For the first time in my life I felt as though life was going right. He became my everything. I adored though not to obsession but to a point of treating him equally. With respect, care, sweetness, thought. I enjoyed chatting with him daily. It helped me. Loved gazing at his face via the webcam... granted in person was FAR better. I still can smell his lingering scent and I long for him. hoping that someday I'll be able to see him face to face, gaze into his gorgeous blue eyes again, to hold him, to be wrapped up in that sensual but sweetly slow kiss. To feel my fingers in his hair, to feel him next to me.
I wasn't shy around him, I didn't feel as though I was taken advantage of or by no means was I uncomfortable. No matter what we did.
I miss him terribly. I long to hear his voice. A mere couple days... it's amazing what such withdraw from the love of your life can do to you.
Yes... I really do believe he was THE One I was waiting for.
It's a cruel, cruel trick of God and the Fates to have only given me a taste for barely 3 months. To give me the man I wished for and then to just take him away from me. It's cruel and unfair. I shed tears in hope that I shall see and hear from him again.
If I must go on without him... I shall. But I will never be the same. My heart belongs to one... and I know who that one is now. God hear my plight... don't deny me happiness. I want that happiness for more than just a moment in time.