fuck.
god i start out too many journal entries like that. even though it seems like i never get around to writing them these days. but this one isn't about me. this one is about sarah. well apparently our friendship is over now according to her, well maby not to that extreme but like, i guess we arent on good terms now. Which i guess its kinda hard to get to that point with her because usually she is so forgiving. But she said that the fact that I forgot her birthday (her 16th), which she said was last Wedensday, crushed her. She then proceeded to tell me that this isn't the first time that this kind of thing has happened and that me forgetting her birthday was just the icing on the cake that made her finally have to say something to me. OK, im sorry that i forgot her birthday; but, wether or not this makes up for that, i dont rmemeber anyone's birthdays. Not because i chose to, its because of my lack of attention span and memory. If she hurts that badly becuase of that then shouldn't I be dead by now because of the fact that i forgot about my own sister's birthday this year? i mean, im sorry, but people forget things, and thats life. yea im sorry that i forgot, but you cant really go around expecting all your friends to make sure that they know every single little detail about your life so that they know what to do for you at what times in whatever places on whatever dates. Im not saying that its not important to remember dates like that, but we are only human, and we forget things. Plus, with all the shit that I am doing this year, along with the fact that im a senior and im supposed to be working on a shit load of projects and college applications and everything, how am i supposed to remember the birthday of someone who i dont even see more than 2 times a week? and when i do see her its only for maby 5 minutes at a time. Plus, the actual date of her birthday was extremely confusing. Because even if i was told the actual date I couldnt remember it for the life of me. When she had a birthday party last year, she had it like a month after the date of her actual birthday, and i kept thinkin that that was like December 11th, but then i also thought that that might have been the date of some other important event that i was probably forgetting. Ill rant and rave more about all this shit later but for now i have to finish my psych project. l8er wrld.
P.S. hey corie!
P.S. hey corie!