someone please tell me your opinion on this convo.
(name deleted): yo
Cjsjthm87: hey there sexi beast
Cjsjthm87: lol
(name deleted): wussup
Cjsjthm87: nm u?
(name deleted): nuttin
: trynna decide if i should take this job or not
: this guy offered me full time work
: or part time if i want
Cjsjthm87: where?
(name deleted): stripping
(name deleted): exotic dancing
(name deleted): whatever
(name deleted): in dc
(name deleted): ive never stripped before
Cjsjthm87: uh....dude....dont
(name deleted): i would make $$$$$$ though
(name deleted): and i need $$$$$$
(name deleted): my bf used to do it
Cjsjthm87: well you need to consider what youd be doing
Cjsjthm87: i know
Cjsjthm87: but thats your boyfriend....not you
(name deleted): so
Cjsjthm87: where do you see yourself in 20 years
(name deleted): ballin in california some where
Cjsjthm87: now if you start doing this now.......thats just going to lead to other things
(name deleted): im moving to cali next year
Cjsjthm87: not that you dont do a lot as it is
(name deleted): ok DAD
(name deleted): lol
Cjsjthm87: no seriously
(name deleted): how do you know i dont do a lot
Cjsjthm87: no i know that you do
(name deleted): its kinda intruiging me.....stripping
(name deleted): but at the same time not
Cjsjthm87: i know
(name deleted): i got offered to do porn too
Cjsjthm87: ok....go jerk off and then think about it
Cjsjthm87: yea and so did i
(name deleted): but that was like a few months ago
(name deleted): um, who offered you
(name deleted): i was offered $4000 for one scene, top or bottom, by cobra video
(name deleted): and it took everything in me to say no
(name deleted): cause i needed the money at the time so so so bad
Cjsjthm87: i was offered to do a trial run infront of the producer of cobra video but obviously i turned that down
Cjsjthm87: cause i donnt wanna get myself into that......even though i do find it intreguing......im not gonna do that to myself
(name deleted): i still kinda wanna do a porn movie someday
(name deleted): just one though
Cjsjthm87: i mean.....on a moral level.........seriously........like.....when your 65....do you want to be an old man retired and enjoying life.....or do you wanna be a crack addict sitting on a street corner at 55 and die laying in your own vomit?
(name deleted): ok....step back for a second
(name deleted): how many life experiences have you really had
Cjsjthm87: i said one thing leads to another
(name deleted): look at where you grew up
Cjsjthm87: dude.....you have no fucking clue how fucked up my friends are
(name deleted): how can you say things like that without ever having been exposed to the real world
(name deleted): oh PLEAAASSSEE
(name deleted): your friends?
(name deleted): how fucked up are they
Cjsjthm87: rape, sex, drugs, blackmail, all that shit has gone down here with just 2 of my friends in the past month
(name deleted): ok, listen to me when i tell u this.........
(name deleted): i have been dealing with the underground scene in dc and baltimore for the past year
(name deleted): in it FULL time
(name deleted): watched 3 of my friends go completely insane
(name deleted): theyre never coming back
(name deleted): from crystal methamphetamine and lsd pcp whatever
(name deleted): i have watched 2 people overdose and DIE
(name deleted): theyre DEAD cory, never coming back
Cjsjthm87: and now you think stripping is a good idea
(name deleted): 3 people have been shot, i have had to ride with my bf to dc one nite to watch him pull a gun on somebody who was holding our friend hostage
Cjsjthm87: your digging your own grave man
(name deleted): so you see, its not that im doubting that your friends are fucked up
(name deleted): just dont judge me, please
Cjsjthm87: YOUR the one getting yourself into all of this shit
Cjsjthm87: its hard not to
(name deleted): why
(name deleted): i dont judge anyone
Cjsjthm87: because you have no right to
(name deleted): and you DO?
Cjsjthm87: everyone has their faults.....i have pleanty too
Cjsjthm87: but you asking me after all the shit youve been going through if stripping for a living is a good idea
Cjsjthm87: how am i NOT supposed to judge you?
(name deleted): i never said i was gonna do it
(name deleted): or asked you if it was a good idea
Cjsjthm87: dude.....it was implied
(name deleted): so dont get shit twisted
Cjsjthm87: otherwise you wouldnt have told me
(name deleted): i told you cause its something thats going on AS WE SPEAK in another im window
(name deleted): the club owner is pressing me
Cjsjthm87: regardless......you still wouldnt have told me if you didnt want me to comment on it
(name deleted): i wouldnt have minded a comment
(name deleted): but instead i got a fucking lecture
(name deleted): from someone almost 3 years younger than me
(name deleted): who hasnt seen HALF of the shit ive seen
Cjsjthm87: nor do i want to see that shit......cause thats not my scene.......when you were 17, even then, regardless of the fact that i am younger than you, i still saw hope for you to make something better of yourself
Cjsjthm87: your seriously just digging your grave deeper and deeper and deeper
Cjsjthm87: though your too high and mighty to listen to anything i have to say all because of an age difference
(name deleted): im not digging my grave
(name deleted): fuck an age difference
(name deleted): cory, youre still a BOY you dont know the half
Cjsjthm87: the half of what......why NOT to become a stripper?
(name deleted): you still got a lot of growing up to do
(name deleted): im not becoming a stripper
Cjsjthm87: well there you go
(name deleted): if thats all youve gotten out of this conversation then i give the fuck up
Cjsjthm87: that was the fucking point
(name deleted): im not digging my grave, im living my life....call it what you want
(name deleted): no its not
(name deleted): not anymore
Cjsjthm87: well on this end it was
(name deleted): read it again then
(name deleted): cause there was much more than that
Cjsjthm87: dude i know what we fuckin said....
Cjsjthm87: but it all comes back to the first two things you said to me
Cjsjthm87: 5 things
(name deleted): which was about the guy who wants me to strip for him
(name deleted): who's still messaging me asking me
(name deleted): exactly
(name deleted): but you really shouldnt judge people
(name deleted): at all
Cjsjthm87: were you kicked out of your house? or did you leave?
(name deleted): i left
(name deleted): what difference does that make
Cjsjthm87: so family didnt lead you to your current status
(name deleted): ive been on my own pretty much since my 18th birthday
(name deleted): my current status being what
Cjsjthm87: well actually.....no.......your status beginning back in highschool
(name deleted): that im not a fucking ho anymore....ive been with my bf for a YEAR, i live in my own apt with him, and we're moving back into a rowhome of our OWN in baltimore
(name deleted): status being that im a proffesional dj, something ive always wanted to do, that im finally making a name for myself
(name deleted): that im LIVING MY LIFE the way i want to
(name deleted): not the way people think i should
(name deleted): cause its MY life
(name deleted): dont you see that
(name deleted): so what if i like to smoke a lil weed or drink or get high or whatever
(name deleted): why not
(name deleted): youre only young once
(name deleted): live it the fuck up
(name deleted): or youll regret it later on
(name deleted): see what im saying?
Cjsjthm87: no........ok.......the bf thing.....i wasnt aware of....i knew you had one.........but i didnt realise that has been for that long........congrats on that.......but.....dude........unless you like seeing all that shit that you tell me ive never experienced.....like friends dieing right in front of you......or being held at gunpoint........drugs, sex, and violence..........they all run together..........stripping = sex.........with all of the drugs and violence and shit already in your life.......do you need that?
(name deleted): um, i need money
(name deleted): but im prolly not gonna do it anyway
(name deleted): but the drugs and violence thing......thats not that frequent of an occurrence
(name deleted): and its part of the scene that we work in
(name deleted): get it?
(name deleted): and im STILL gonna go back to school too, in a year or so
(name deleted): prolly less than that
Cjsjthm87: yea.....but..........there is a little thing that could solve your money issues
Cjsjthm87: good
Cjsjthm87: thats what i was getting at
(name deleted): what is a little thing that could solve my money issues
Cjsjthm87: i was gonna say college
Cjsjthm87: like.....dude....if you got a degree in like music or something like that....you dj career would skyrocket
Cjsjthm87: seriously.....like i dont know if there is anything beyond that kind of job that you want to go but like.......college will help
(name deleted): college costs $$$
(name deleted): a LOT
(name deleted): of $$$
Cjsjthm87: community college
(name deleted): thats still a couple thou a year
Cjsjthm87: what about your parents?
(name deleted): and i dont want to be a dj forever
Cjsjthm87: well....then
Cjsjthm87: unless you wanna work at a wal-mart the rest of your life
Cjsjthm87: ...
(name deleted): fuck wal mart
Cjsjthm87: it was an example
Cjsjthm87: i mean the job oppurtuinities are not great without going to college
(name deleted): i cant wait til u get out of hagerstown.......seriously
(name deleted): and i dont mean that in a bad way
Cjsjthm87: your here?
Cjsjthm87: oops
Cjsjthm87: lol
Cjsjthm87: read that wrong
(name deleted): theres so much more to life then where youre at
Cjsjthm87: yea.....im aware of that
(name deleted): and everything youve been saying to me sounds exactly like what my parents used to say
(name deleted): word for word
Cjsjthm87: trust me......i do know what is outside of of my so-called "bubble"
(name deleted): do you really though?
(name deleted): you prolly think you know.....but itll take your breath away once you experience it
Cjsjthm87: yea i do.........i dont know it first hand.....but i know what i do and do NOT want to experience
(name deleted): *siiiiiigh* o well then
(name deleted): you should come see me spin some nite
(name deleted): since u have a car and everything
Cjsjthm87: thats quite alright
(name deleted): why is it quite alright
Cjsjthm87: sorry......but i dont have any desire to start clubbin now......at all....you say its fun.....but dude......i already told you thats not my scene
(name deleted): i dont spin at clubs all the time
(name deleted): i spin at this cute little bar in baltimore city every sat nite
Cjsjthm87: where else would you spin? birthday parties?
(name deleted): upscale kinda
(name deleted): um no
(name deleted): bars, warehouses, clubs, house parties, blah blah whatever
(name deleted): but mostly bars
(name deleted): well im done, i dont really have anything else to say........just dont judge people cause theyre different than you
(name deleted): seriously
Cjsjthm87: im not judging you cause your different.....im judging you because we both know that things can be better but your still stuck in the here and now
(name deleted): im not stuck in the here and now
(name deleted): im living life
(name deleted): life is hard
(name deleted): youve never lived on your own before
(name deleted): so how can you tell me anything
(name deleted): ive been at it for almost 3 years
Cjsjthm87: i have a sister.......she got fed up with my dad and moved to michigan.....as a sophmore in college......she has an apartment and hasnt been home for a year and a half and hasnt hadd a problem since
(name deleted): ok......thats your sister
(name deleted): note the *college* part
Cjsjthm87: life is hard......last year her boyfriend tried to kill her
Cjsjthm87: she stayed there on her own
(name deleted): well that sounds like a problem to me
Cjsjthm87: and toughed it out
Cjsjthm87: saw it through
(name deleted): so thats what im doing
Cjsjthm87: and thats in the past
(name deleted): and im getting ready to move to cali
(name deleted): CALIFORNIA
Cjsjthm87: yea......but.......even considering stripping......(that is still what started this arguement).......seems rediculous if your planning on fixing all of your problems
(name deleted): why rediculous
(name deleted): it could be fun
(name deleted): you never know
Cjsjthm87: think about it......what runs along side stripping
Cjsjthm87: drugs, sex, and violence..like i said they always run together.
Cjsjthm87: and if you were to take that job......what happens when you have a job at some music corporation and they want to promote you to a very high paying job but then they see that you are an ex-stripper. people in most businesses dont take that too lightly
(name deleted): .........thats fairly doubtful
(name deleted): especially in the music industryl
(name deleted): who cares anyway, cause im not gonna do it
Cjsjthm87: well anyways dude i gtg....but all im trying to do is help you prevent from getting more problems in your life
(name deleted) is away at 11:00:58 PM.
Cjsjthm87: hey there sexi beast
Cjsjthm87: lol
(name deleted): wussup
Cjsjthm87: nm u?
(name deleted): nuttin
: trynna decide if i should take this job or not
: this guy offered me full time work
: or part time if i want
Cjsjthm87: where?
(name deleted): stripping
(name deleted): exotic dancing
(name deleted): whatever
(name deleted): in dc
(name deleted): ive never stripped before
Cjsjthm87: uh....dude....dont
(name deleted): i would make $$$$$$ though
(name deleted): and i need $$$$$$
(name deleted): my bf used to do it
Cjsjthm87: well you need to consider what youd be doing
Cjsjthm87: i know
Cjsjthm87: but thats your boyfriend....not you
(name deleted): so
Cjsjthm87: where do you see yourself in 20 years
(name deleted): ballin in california some where
Cjsjthm87: now if you start doing this now.......thats just going to lead to other things
(name deleted): im moving to cali next year
Cjsjthm87: not that you dont do a lot as it is
(name deleted): ok DAD
(name deleted): lol
Cjsjthm87: no seriously
(name deleted): how do you know i dont do a lot
Cjsjthm87: no i know that you do
(name deleted): its kinda intruiging me.....stripping
(name deleted): but at the same time not
Cjsjthm87: i know
(name deleted): i got offered to do porn too
Cjsjthm87: ok....go jerk off and then think about it
Cjsjthm87: yea and so did i
(name deleted): but that was like a few months ago
(name deleted): um, who offered you
(name deleted): i was offered $4000 for one scene, top or bottom, by cobra video
(name deleted): and it took everything in me to say no
(name deleted): cause i needed the money at the time so so so bad
Cjsjthm87: i was offered to do a trial run infront of the producer of cobra video but obviously i turned that down
Cjsjthm87: cause i donnt wanna get myself into that......even though i do find it intreguing......im not gonna do that to myself
(name deleted): i still kinda wanna do a porn movie someday
(name deleted): just one though
Cjsjthm87: i mean.....on a moral level.........seriously........like.....when your 65....do you want to be an old man retired and enjoying life.....or do you wanna be a crack addict sitting on a street corner at 55 and die laying in your own vomit?
(name deleted): ok....step back for a second
(name deleted): how many life experiences have you really had
Cjsjthm87: i said one thing leads to another
(name deleted): look at where you grew up
Cjsjthm87: dude.....you have no fucking clue how fucked up my friends are
(name deleted): how can you say things like that without ever having been exposed to the real world
(name deleted): oh PLEAAASSSEE
(name deleted): your friends?
(name deleted): how fucked up are they
Cjsjthm87: rape, sex, drugs, blackmail, all that shit has gone down here with just 2 of my friends in the past month
(name deleted): ok, listen to me when i tell u this.........
(name deleted): i have been dealing with the underground scene in dc and baltimore for the past year
(name deleted): in it FULL time
(name deleted): watched 3 of my friends go completely insane
(name deleted): theyre never coming back
(name deleted): from crystal methamphetamine and lsd pcp whatever
(name deleted): i have watched 2 people overdose and DIE
(name deleted): theyre DEAD cory, never coming back
Cjsjthm87: and now you think stripping is a good idea
(name deleted): 3 people have been shot, i have had to ride with my bf to dc one nite to watch him pull a gun on somebody who was holding our friend hostage
Cjsjthm87: your digging your own grave man
(name deleted): so you see, its not that im doubting that your friends are fucked up
(name deleted): just dont judge me, please
Cjsjthm87: YOUR the one getting yourself into all of this shit
Cjsjthm87: its hard not to
(name deleted): why
(name deleted): i dont judge anyone
Cjsjthm87: because you have no right to
(name deleted): and you DO?
Cjsjthm87: everyone has their faults.....i have pleanty too
Cjsjthm87: but you asking me after all the shit youve been going through if stripping for a living is a good idea
Cjsjthm87: how am i NOT supposed to judge you?
(name deleted): i never said i was gonna do it
(name deleted): or asked you if it was a good idea
Cjsjthm87: dude.....it was implied
(name deleted): so dont get shit twisted
Cjsjthm87: otherwise you wouldnt have told me
(name deleted): i told you cause its something thats going on AS WE SPEAK in another im window
(name deleted): the club owner is pressing me
Cjsjthm87: regardless......you still wouldnt have told me if you didnt want me to comment on it
(name deleted): i wouldnt have minded a comment
(name deleted): but instead i got a fucking lecture
(name deleted): from someone almost 3 years younger than me
(name deleted): who hasnt seen HALF of the shit ive seen
Cjsjthm87: nor do i want to see that shit......cause thats not my scene.......when you were 17, even then, regardless of the fact that i am younger than you, i still saw hope for you to make something better of yourself
Cjsjthm87: your seriously just digging your grave deeper and deeper and deeper
Cjsjthm87: though your too high and mighty to listen to anything i have to say all because of an age difference
(name deleted): im not digging my grave
(name deleted): fuck an age difference
(name deleted): cory, youre still a BOY you dont know the half
Cjsjthm87: the half of what......why NOT to become a stripper?
(name deleted): you still got a lot of growing up to do
(name deleted): im not becoming a stripper
Cjsjthm87: well there you go
(name deleted): if thats all youve gotten out of this conversation then i give the fuck up
Cjsjthm87: that was the fucking point
(name deleted): im not digging my grave, im living my life....call it what you want
(name deleted): no its not
(name deleted): not anymore
Cjsjthm87: well on this end it was
(name deleted): read it again then
(name deleted): cause there was much more than that
Cjsjthm87: dude i know what we fuckin said....
Cjsjthm87: but it all comes back to the first two things you said to me
Cjsjthm87: 5 things
(name deleted): which was about the guy who wants me to strip for him
(name deleted): who's still messaging me asking me
(name deleted): exactly
(name deleted): but you really shouldnt judge people
(name deleted): at all
Cjsjthm87: were you kicked out of your house? or did you leave?
(name deleted): i left
(name deleted): what difference does that make
Cjsjthm87: so family didnt lead you to your current status
(name deleted): ive been on my own pretty much since my 18th birthday
(name deleted): my current status being what
Cjsjthm87: well actually.....no.......your status beginning back in highschool
(name deleted): that im not a fucking ho anymore....ive been with my bf for a YEAR, i live in my own apt with him, and we're moving back into a rowhome of our OWN in baltimore
(name deleted): status being that im a proffesional dj, something ive always wanted to do, that im finally making a name for myself
(name deleted): that im LIVING MY LIFE the way i want to
(name deleted): not the way people think i should
(name deleted): cause its MY life
(name deleted): dont you see that
(name deleted): so what if i like to smoke a lil weed or drink or get high or whatever
(name deleted): why not
(name deleted): youre only young once
(name deleted): live it the fuck up
(name deleted): or youll regret it later on
(name deleted): see what im saying?
Cjsjthm87: no........ok.......the bf thing.....i wasnt aware of....i knew you had one.........but i didnt realise that has been for that long........congrats on that.......but.....dude........unless you like seeing all that shit that you tell me ive never experienced.....like friends dieing right in front of you......or being held at gunpoint........drugs, sex, and violence..........they all run together..........stripping = sex.........with all of the drugs and violence and shit already in your life.......do you need that?
(name deleted): um, i need money
(name deleted): but im prolly not gonna do it anyway
(name deleted): but the drugs and violence thing......thats not that frequent of an occurrence
(name deleted): and its part of the scene that we work in
(name deleted): get it?
(name deleted): and im STILL gonna go back to school too, in a year or so
(name deleted): prolly less than that
Cjsjthm87: yea.....but..........there is a little thing that could solve your money issues
Cjsjthm87: good
Cjsjthm87: thats what i was getting at
(name deleted): what is a little thing that could solve my money issues
Cjsjthm87: i was gonna say college
Cjsjthm87: like.....dude....if you got a degree in like music or something like that....you dj career would skyrocket
Cjsjthm87: seriously.....like i dont know if there is anything beyond that kind of job that you want to go but like.......college will help
(name deleted): college costs $$$
(name deleted): a LOT
(name deleted): of $$$
Cjsjthm87: community college
(name deleted): thats still a couple thou a year
Cjsjthm87: what about your parents?
(name deleted): and i dont want to be a dj forever
Cjsjthm87: well....then
Cjsjthm87: unless you wanna work at a wal-mart the rest of your life
Cjsjthm87: ...
(name deleted): fuck wal mart
Cjsjthm87: it was an example
Cjsjthm87: i mean the job oppurtuinities are not great without going to college
(name deleted): i cant wait til u get out of hagerstown.......seriously
(name deleted): and i dont mean that in a bad way
Cjsjthm87: your here?
Cjsjthm87: oops
Cjsjthm87: lol
Cjsjthm87: read that wrong
(name deleted): theres so much more to life then where youre at
Cjsjthm87: yea.....im aware of that
(name deleted): and everything youve been saying to me sounds exactly like what my parents used to say
(name deleted): word for word
Cjsjthm87: trust me......i do know what is outside of of my so-called "bubble"
(name deleted): do you really though?
(name deleted): you prolly think you know.....but itll take your breath away once you experience it
Cjsjthm87: yea i do.........i dont know it first hand.....but i know what i do and do NOT want to experience
(name deleted): *siiiiiigh* o well then
(name deleted): you should come see me spin some nite
(name deleted): since u have a car and everything
Cjsjthm87: thats quite alright
(name deleted): why is it quite alright
Cjsjthm87: sorry......but i dont have any desire to start clubbin now......at all....you say its fun.....but dude......i already told you thats not my scene
(name deleted): i dont spin at clubs all the time
(name deleted): i spin at this cute little bar in baltimore city every sat nite
Cjsjthm87: where else would you spin? birthday parties?
(name deleted): upscale kinda
(name deleted): um no
(name deleted): bars, warehouses, clubs, house parties, blah blah whatever
(name deleted): but mostly bars
(name deleted): well im done, i dont really have anything else to say........just dont judge people cause theyre different than you
(name deleted): seriously
Cjsjthm87: im not judging you cause your different.....im judging you because we both know that things can be better but your still stuck in the here and now
(name deleted): im not stuck in the here and now
(name deleted): im living life
(name deleted): life is hard
(name deleted): youve never lived on your own before
(name deleted): so how can you tell me anything
(name deleted): ive been at it for almost 3 years
Cjsjthm87: i have a sister.......she got fed up with my dad and moved to michigan.....as a sophmore in college......she has an apartment and hasnt been home for a year and a half and hasnt hadd a problem since
(name deleted): ok......thats your sister
(name deleted): note the *college* part
Cjsjthm87: life is hard......last year her boyfriend tried to kill her
Cjsjthm87: she stayed there on her own
(name deleted): well that sounds like a problem to me
Cjsjthm87: and toughed it out
Cjsjthm87: saw it through
(name deleted): so thats what im doing
Cjsjthm87: and thats in the past
(name deleted): and im getting ready to move to cali
(name deleted): CALIFORNIA
Cjsjthm87: yea......but.......even considering stripping......(that is still what started this arguement).......seems rediculous if your planning on fixing all of your problems
(name deleted): why rediculous
(name deleted): it could be fun
(name deleted): you never know
Cjsjthm87: think about it......what runs along side stripping
Cjsjthm87: drugs, sex, and violence..like i said they always run together.
Cjsjthm87: and if you were to take that job......what happens when you have a job at some music corporation and they want to promote you to a very high paying job but then they see that you are an ex-stripper. people in most businesses dont take that too lightly
(name deleted): .........thats fairly doubtful
(name deleted): especially in the music industryl
(name deleted): who cares anyway, cause im not gonna do it
Cjsjthm87: well anyways dude i gtg....but all im trying to do is help you prevent from getting more problems in your life
(name deleted) is away at 11:00:58 PM.