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I made pupusas today and it was gratifying to be able to make a typical dish successfully. I guess I won't fail as a wife in my future life, let's just hope Michael Phelps likes pupusas as much as I do.
Greysy decided to share a survey about relationships with Bridgette and me. As I went through the questions I realized the survey validated my fear of commitment. I answered the questions as honestly as I could and I found that for some I had no answers, because I've never really been in a meaningful or lasting relationship. So I wondered if it's something I should be looking for now, I've had my fun and sometimes it just sucks to be alone. Out of all my roommates Kenia and I are the only ones who are single, however she's ready to settle down, I on the other hand have no idea of what I want. Being single is fun and all, but at the end of the night I wish there was someone I could talk to or breath on the phone to, other than Amanda of course, who is unavailable and in London now. Yesterday night a friend of ours came over and hung out, he is completely adorable, flirtatious and worst of all really nice. He calls me beautiful in all the different languages he speaks and it felt great to have someone to innocently flirt with without the latter consequences. After he left I went and hung out with Jonathan, my personal asshole, when I left his house this morning I realized that I'm tired of just having flings and I may be ready for something more. The ideal of having a relationship at this moment is not completely concrete, but I may consider it as an option, as long as I don't go crazy looking for that one perfect guy. I just wish I could know what it is that I want or expect from a guy because usually I pick the wrong ones, I have the Carry Bradshaw complex without the Mr. Big at the end of the night. Is not that I haven't had exemplary relationships around me, au contraire, my parents have been married for 20 something years and my grandparents for almost 50 years. Good influences are all around me and I'm not a bad person either. Oh Michael Phelps where art thou when I need you?
Greysy decided to share a survey about relationships with Bridgette and me. As I went through the questions I realized the survey validated my fear of commitment. I answered the questions as honestly as I could and I found that for some I had no answers, because I've never really been in a meaningful or lasting relationship. So I wondered if it's something I should be looking for now, I've had my fun and sometimes it just sucks to be alone. Out of all my roommates Kenia and I are the only ones who are single, however she's ready to settle down, I on the other hand have no idea of what I want. Being single is fun and all, but at the end of the night I wish there was someone I could talk to or breath on the phone to, other than Amanda of course, who is unavailable and in London now. Yesterday night a friend of ours came over and hung out, he is completely adorable, flirtatious and worst of all really nice. He calls me beautiful in all the different languages he speaks and it felt great to have someone to innocently flirt with without the latter consequences. After he left I went and hung out with Jonathan, my personal asshole, when I left his house this morning I realized that I'm tired of just having flings and I may be ready for something more. The ideal of having a relationship at this moment is not completely concrete, but I may consider it as an option, as long as I don't go crazy looking for that one perfect guy. I just wish I could know what it is that I want or expect from a guy because usually I pick the wrong ones, I have the Carry Bradshaw complex without the Mr. Big at the end of the night. Is not that I haven't had exemplary relationships around me, au contraire, my parents have been married for 20 something years and my grandparents for almost 50 years. Good influences are all around me and I'm not a bad person either. Oh Michael Phelps where art thou when I need you?