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what complete and utter bullshit i speak. i have 8 caffiene pills and a bottle of red square. i feel fucking awful. i hate my life, i have been managing so badly with college this week, avoiding it is such a stupid idea but i just dont feel like i can cope in that enviornment. i feel seick. man i just suck i am shuit i am making dyslexic spelling mistakes and worrying my family with my cerazy caffiene talking and this guy crhis, he thinks he likes me but he wont. not when he realizes the full extent of my sucky ass physcologically disturbed shiitty neuroticsness.
and i am going to get kicked out of college for sure at rthe rate im going. i dont know why i bother. so i can draw picturwes, so fucking what. i can write stuff in exams but im too weak to even make it to lessons. the stuff with sarra isnt helping. i just cant see a way out of the shit i create for myself. i get the feeling caffiene and self indulgent moping around probably isnt the answer
i just want to sleep forever. i want to just stop everything, to stop my feelings and my brain worms and my neediness and my anger and my depression and just fukcving STOP
and i am going to get kicked out of college for sure at rthe rate im going. i dont know why i bother. so i can draw picturwes, so fucking what. i can write stuff in exams but im too weak to even make it to lessons. the stuff with sarra isnt helping. i just cant see a way out of the shit i create for myself. i get the feeling caffiene and self indulgent moping around probably isnt the answer
i just want to sleep forever. i want to just stop everything, to stop my feelings and my brain worms and my neediness and my anger and my depression and just fukcving STOP