gragghhh
Just want to get a few things off my chest. This is just some random stuff that I was thinking about; it probably won't make much sense to any of you.
First off, people need to stop judging others on the things that don't really matter. Don't define me by the clothes I wear or the music I listen to. I'm a person and I should be treated as one. It takes time to truly understand an individual, but people are so caught up in themselves nowadays that they don't even give others a chance. I'm sick of being labeled and having people look at me a certain way because of my age...simply a number...or my gender. I'm my own person and if people would actually take the time to get to know me, they would realize that. Not everyone is the same like you would think. Just because you come across a few bad apples amongst the bunch, doesn't mean they are all rotten. I've come a long way with my life and I've encountered both good and bad people. It's sad to say that the bad outweighs the good. If you think about it though...If it weren't for those bad people, how would anyone know how to define a good and decent person? Everything in life works together. For example, people are scared of dying. I know I sure am. Anytime I think about it, I can't really quite grasp it. I try and forget about it as soon as possible because I don't want to die and I don't want to lose anyone I care about. Thing is...if people didn't die, then what would be the point of life? People wouldn't work as hard to reach their goals or dreams. They'd think that they have all the time in the world and then they'd just put everything off.
I get frustrated a lot because of things that happen to me in my life that I wish would go a different way. I'd always let everything bother me and it got to the point where I would become a complete mess. I'd say stupid shit like "I wish I was dead" as do many of us. It's just a phrase people throw around when they can't handle something at the moment and think things would be better off if they didn't have to deal with it. What they don't understand is that those negative things that happen in their lives are actually what is molding them into a better and stronger person. People need to look at the picture as a whole. Life is the most complex thing known to man. It's made up of a bunch of elements that you and I will never totally figure out. It's such a shame when people look at life as being a waste of time. We go through life to learn and gain knowledge from experience. I'm getting sick of hearing kids run their mouths about suicide. It's the most selfish thing I can think of. When people talk about it, it's just a cry for help..someone looking for attention that they aren't receiving. It's sad to think that someone could feel so empty inside that they would go to the extremes of attempting suicide. If just one person would take the time out of their day to just be there for another person, it could/would change everything. People never think that their actions can affect others, but the littlest things really do go a long way. So the next time you think you can't make a difference, think again.
Another thing about people that I'm still not understanding is why the hell they push away the good things in their life. I swear they do it just so they can bitch about shit. I talk to an awesome guy just about every day that deserves a really great girl. I want to see him happy for a change and know that someone is putting a smile on his face. He's everything a normal girl should love in a guy, which is why I don't see why he's single. He's a perfect example, though, to what I'm talking about. Great person that doesn't get noticed because no one takes the time to really get to know him. I guess it's their loss though.
I don't even know anymore. I'm having a very hard time trusting anyone in my life as of now and lately I've been the biggest bitch ever. I just figure why should I be nice anymore when all it has ever gotten me is shit. I'm just a doormat for everyone to walk all over. I'm too nice to people and I care too much about making others happy and because of that, I tend to forget about myself. And that has to stop, so I'm making it stop. From now on if I don't think someone is worth my time to talk to, I'm not going to bother. Fuck sitting online and waiting for everyone else to talk to me. If you were my real friends you would call me. I know I've hurt certain people in my life recently, but it's about damn time I think of myself. I'm always bringing myself down to meet others standards when I shouldn't have to. I've said it before and I'll say it again. I'm not going to settle for just anybody. Sometimes I get lonely as hell because I think I'll be single my whole life. I see happy couples and then it just makes me realize what I don't have. I know life's not all about that, but I still want to be with someone. Thing is, whenever I think something's going good, I'm usually proven wrong. I can never tell if someone actually likes me or is just joking around and then it messes with my head. I guess what it all comes down to is that I think TOO MUCH.
Yeahhhh...I kind of just threw a bunch of random topics together that I was thinking about all at once, so I apologize to those who read this if this doesn't make sense. It's not suppose to as I said before. As usual, my mind was on overload and I had to clear it somehow. If you actually read this, all I have to say is thanks for taking the time.
First off, people need to stop judging others on the things that don't really matter. Don't define me by the clothes I wear or the music I listen to. I'm a person and I should be treated as one. It takes time to truly understand an individual, but people are so caught up in themselves nowadays that they don't even give others a chance. I'm sick of being labeled and having people look at me a certain way because of my age...simply a number...or my gender. I'm my own person and if people would actually take the time to get to know me, they would realize that. Not everyone is the same like you would think. Just because you come across a few bad apples amongst the bunch, doesn't mean they are all rotten. I've come a long way with my life and I've encountered both good and bad people. It's sad to say that the bad outweighs the good. If you think about it though...If it weren't for those bad people, how would anyone know how to define a good and decent person? Everything in life works together. For example, people are scared of dying. I know I sure am. Anytime I think about it, I can't really quite grasp it. I try and forget about it as soon as possible because I don't want to die and I don't want to lose anyone I care about. Thing is...if people didn't die, then what would be the point of life? People wouldn't work as hard to reach their goals or dreams. They'd think that they have all the time in the world and then they'd just put everything off.
I get frustrated a lot because of things that happen to me in my life that I wish would go a different way. I'd always let everything bother me and it got to the point where I would become a complete mess. I'd say stupid shit like "I wish I was dead" as do many of us. It's just a phrase people throw around when they can't handle something at the moment and think things would be better off if they didn't have to deal with it. What they don't understand is that those negative things that happen in their lives are actually what is molding them into a better and stronger person. People need to look at the picture as a whole. Life is the most complex thing known to man. It's made up of a bunch of elements that you and I will never totally figure out. It's such a shame when people look at life as being a waste of time. We go through life to learn and gain knowledge from experience. I'm getting sick of hearing kids run their mouths about suicide. It's the most selfish thing I can think of. When people talk about it, it's just a cry for help..someone looking for attention that they aren't receiving. It's sad to think that someone could feel so empty inside that they would go to the extremes of attempting suicide. If just one person would take the time out of their day to just be there for another person, it could/would change everything. People never think that their actions can affect others, but the littlest things really do go a long way. So the next time you think you can't make a difference, think again.
Another thing about people that I'm still not understanding is why the hell they push away the good things in their life. I swear they do it just so they can bitch about shit. I talk to an awesome guy just about every day that deserves a really great girl. I want to see him happy for a change and know that someone is putting a smile on his face. He's everything a normal girl should love in a guy, which is why I don't see why he's single. He's a perfect example, though, to what I'm talking about. Great person that doesn't get noticed because no one takes the time to really get to know him. I guess it's their loss though.
I don't even know anymore. I'm having a very hard time trusting anyone in my life as of now and lately I've been the biggest bitch ever. I just figure why should I be nice anymore when all it has ever gotten me is shit. I'm just a doormat for everyone to walk all over. I'm too nice to people and I care too much about making others happy and because of that, I tend to forget about myself. And that has to stop, so I'm making it stop. From now on if I don't think someone is worth my time to talk to, I'm not going to bother. Fuck sitting online and waiting for everyone else to talk to me. If you were my real friends you would call me. I know I've hurt certain people in my life recently, but it's about damn time I think of myself. I'm always bringing myself down to meet others standards when I shouldn't have to. I've said it before and I'll say it again. I'm not going to settle for just anybody. Sometimes I get lonely as hell because I think I'll be single my whole life. I see happy couples and then it just makes me realize what I don't have. I know life's not all about that, but I still want to be with someone. Thing is, whenever I think something's going good, I'm usually proven wrong. I can never tell if someone actually likes me or is just joking around and then it messes with my head. I guess what it all comes down to is that I think TOO MUCH.
Yeahhhh...I kind of just threw a bunch of random topics together that I was thinking about all at once, so I apologize to those who read this if this doesn't make sense. It's not suppose to as I said before. As usual, my mind was on overload and I had to clear it somehow. If you actually read this, all I have to say is thanks for taking the time.