it's dark outside.
I dreamed I was a hit man.
And I've just woken up. (I feel moderately ashamed of sleeping until almost 4pm, but that's my parents talking; fuck them. My schedule is different!)
I don't feel too badly about it. There are plenty of people in this world who need killing. But the whole thing was very odd.
I don't really remember any of the "jobs" I went on. I was part of a team, though; we all got targets and plane tickets and so on. There was a certain camaraderie there, one that I haven't really felt before.
It was a lot like the Bourne movies, only not quite as cool.
There was a lot more to it, I'm sure. But what am I supposed to learn from this? It's easy to dismiss, because I hardly ever remember my dreams, and when I do they're mostly nonsensical.
This feels different, though.
In the dream, I still liked cute things, like I do in this life: baby animals, flowers, and so on. Also in the dream, I had no fear (that I recall). What needed to be done, I did. That's all.
Maybe that's what I need to do to get rid of the fear -- just do what needs to be done.
Which prompts the question -- what needs to be done?
... & I'm so tired all of a sudden.
And I've just woken up. (I feel moderately ashamed of sleeping until almost 4pm, but that's my parents talking; fuck them. My schedule is different!)
I don't feel too badly about it. There are plenty of people in this world who need killing. But the whole thing was very odd.
I don't really remember any of the "jobs" I went on. I was part of a team, though; we all got targets and plane tickets and so on. There was a certain camaraderie there, one that I haven't really felt before.
It was a lot like the Bourne movies, only not quite as cool.
There was a lot more to it, I'm sure. But what am I supposed to learn from this? It's easy to dismiss, because I hardly ever remember my dreams, and when I do they're mostly nonsensical.
This feels different, though.
In the dream, I still liked cute things, like I do in this life: baby animals, flowers, and so on. Also in the dream, I had no fear (that I recall). What needed to be done, I did. That's all.
Maybe that's what I need to do to get rid of the fear -- just do what needs to be done.
Which prompts the question -- what needs to be done?
... & I'm so tired all of a sudden.