Nov 01, 2006 22:14
1) I know that you’re in the process of becoming someone new. What makes me sad is that I feel like this process is taking you further and further away from me. But I guess I’m done trying to hold on… maybe this is just life taking its course.
2) …you’re back. I’m not entirely sure how I feel about that, or what the hell is going on. But so far, so good. You make me happy.
3) I think I screwed it up with you. Sadly, for good. I don’t think there’s much left…. not that there was much to begin with, either. See ya around, I suppose.
4) I miss you. Like you have no idea. I’m not sure that I have a very good reason for missing you, but it doesn’t really make a damn bit of difference to me. You really taught me something, and I’ll never forget it. I’ll never forget you.
5) You confuse the hell out of me, and I fear that I will never understand you. That’s not new. What is new is that I have given up trying to understand you. I’m just gonna let you be, let you do your thing… cause its your life, and I shouldn’t tell you how to live it. You are your own beautiful person, and I respect that. I respect you.
6) You fascinate me, and I love talking to you. Which is why its unfortunate that certain things that occurred have kept us apart a bit. I know its my fault, and I know that eventually we’ll get through it. What I hope is that you can forgive me, and have the patience to push through so that we can be friends.
7) You’re a good time. But I worry about you. Not in a way that I think anything seriously bad is going to happen, though. I just worry what things mean.
8) You’re one of those people that I walk away from with a skip in my step and ambition in my heart. Our conversations always inspire me and leave me craving even more intellectual discussions.
9) I don’t really like the person you’re becoming, which is why I’ve been kind of avoiding you lately. Not that it’s a big loss to you or anything… just make me wonder if I ever really knew you in the first place…
10) Y’know how some people talk about “finding” their family? After meeting you, now I know what they’re talking about. I don’t know that I’d exactly say you’re like a brother to me now, but you’re definitely family, and I love you.