All I want to do with my time on earth is sit in a dark parking lot
Painfully living a falsehood, leaving a crossroads
Having my mind get prodded at
I disconnect from my family
I am an ashtray
I get all the respect I need
- Dark Parking Lot by Bonsai Trees
It’s been an interesting time.
Had a little bit of time off. I worked 8 days in a row and then I basically had 3 days off, only had a 3 hr shift. Then one day of work, then today off. So all is goodish.
Mariah and I hung out and went to see Bartees Strange and Metric, it was seriously rad and so much fun. So much dancing and both artists were phenomenal. It was so amazing to share Bartees Strange with people, like the people we were with (Zachs bro’s gf and her work friend) didn’t know his music at all, and I’m like wait and be amazed haha. So amazing, he is crazy talented on the guitar. I found the show because I wanted to see him on tour and Metric was like a bonus. But Metric exceeded all of my expectations. So good and played way longer than I expected, so many bangers. Doomscroller to start the show, Combat Baby acoustic with everyone singing along, and Black Sheep in the 4 song encore we’re absolute standouts. Good mix of new stuff and old stuff.
Then the next day I was supposed to have off with the whole house to myself, but then I ended up going to emerg with my grandma for nearly 6 hours. So that kind of put an overall damper on the day. She fell out of bed a few days before, and her doctor told her that her leg likely wasn’t broken. Then it got worse and more swollen, so I took her to hospital waited a few hours for X-rays and to see another doctor where he tells her she has a broken/fractured shinbone. Then we also have to sit around for a few more hours waiting for them to figure out whether it needs a cast or a splint. It was a whole ordeal. And not to make it all about me, but I was running on like 3 hours of sleep, post concert, and zero coffee and like zero water, because I picked her up right away in the morning. So I’m not holding up well. After getting the splint and taking her back to the retirement home, I just broke down sobbing in the car and at home. I took half a weed gummy and made myself a delicious grilled naan sandwich with brie and cherry tomatoes and cilantro. Then I chilled out and was able to enjoy the rest of my day. But it’s so rough watching as people you love age and their bodies and her ability decline. Like obviously. But she’s getting so frail and with this and the healing it will take she may never really walk again, now that she’s in a wheel chair she may never be out of it. She turned 90 this year after all.
I should be using today to fully get my D&D character in order, Paige is expecting us to send her our info soon, but she’s going away for a few weeks so I think I still have time, it’s just kinda overwhelming to figure out all the stats and numbers.
It’s nearly September and how can that be haha.
Having my mind get prodded at
I disconnect from my family
I am an ashtray
I get all the respect I need
- Dark Parking Lot by Bonsai Trees
It’s been an interesting time.
Had a little bit of time off. I worked 8 days in a row and then I basically had 3 days off, only had a 3 hr shift. Then one day of work, then today off. So all is goodish.
Mariah and I hung out and went to see Bartees Strange and Metric, it was seriously rad and so much fun. So much dancing and both artists were phenomenal. It was so amazing to share Bartees Strange with people, like the people we were with (Zachs bro’s gf and her work friend) didn’t know his music at all, and I’m like wait and be amazed haha. So amazing, he is crazy talented on the guitar. I found the show because I wanted to see him on tour and Metric was like a bonus. But Metric exceeded all of my expectations. So good and played way longer than I expected, so many bangers. Doomscroller to start the show, Combat Baby acoustic with everyone singing along, and Black Sheep in the 4 song encore we’re absolute standouts. Good mix of new stuff and old stuff.
Then the next day I was supposed to have off with the whole house to myself, but then I ended up going to emerg with my grandma for nearly 6 hours. So that kind of put an overall damper on the day. She fell out of bed a few days before, and her doctor told her that her leg likely wasn’t broken. Then it got worse and more swollen, so I took her to hospital waited a few hours for X-rays and to see another doctor where he tells her she has a broken/fractured shinbone. Then we also have to sit around for a few more hours waiting for them to figure out whether it needs a cast or a splint. It was a whole ordeal. And not to make it all about me, but I was running on like 3 hours of sleep, post concert, and zero coffee and like zero water, because I picked her up right away in the morning. So I’m not holding up well. After getting the splint and taking her back to the retirement home, I just broke down sobbing in the car and at home. I took half a weed gummy and made myself a delicious grilled naan sandwich with brie and cherry tomatoes and cilantro. Then I chilled out and was able to enjoy the rest of my day. But it’s so rough watching as people you love age and their bodies and her ability decline. Like obviously. But she’s getting so frail and with this and the healing it will take she may never really walk again, now that she’s in a wheel chair she may never be out of it. She turned 90 this year after all.
I should be using today to fully get my D&D character in order, Paige is expecting us to send her our info soon, but she’s going away for a few weeks so I think I still have time, it’s just kinda overwhelming to figure out all the stats and numbers.
It’s nearly September and how can that be haha.