I surrender
Life. I surrender. I have no optimism left. I have constantly fought, clawed, scratched and battled with you. You have tried to keep me down, and I have relentlessly pushed back. But I have nothing left. I have nothing left to give. I have fought the good fight since the day I moved to Huntsville, some 15 years ago. But I can fight no more. I am now another emotionless automaton in the great rat race that is human existence.
I lost.
I lost.