"05:32 pm -
Obligatory public cryptic note to affected partyBelieve it or not, I'm sorry this is hurting you, but the truth is, none of this is actually my doing. I am just the catalyst here.
He wants me because I taste like freedom.
Everyone makes their choices, and has to own their choices. You cannot browbeat someone into staying with you. (Well, you can, but not into wanting to stay with you.) I've had to learn this the hard way. I'm sorry you are, too.
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Actually, I asked him what you taste like, ya know .. bad or good? And he said "Neutral". I think that's telling, don't you?
He's been up in it because you're easy and, you're right, you're a cushion on whom he can jump ship. You're his freedom fries. So romantic.
But, if it's such paradise between you two,
chanaleh, why would you write this hateful, psycho, drama-mongering bullshit?
Your apology that I'm hurting over breaking up my 5 year relationship is obviously *dripping* with compassion.
I'm impressed you even managed to squeeze that out of your shriveled, selfish, miserable Grinch heart. Did you run out of kittens to kick in your neighborhood or something?
Is this the ethical poly you're so proud of yourself for?
You know... tikkun olam, or what?
You can't possibly think I'm interested in your unsolicited relationship advice.
Because, um, I got friends, kthanks.
You're certainly not impressing your new little 'prize' with this one. I will tell you that. We've already been down this road with another freak he was doing & deluding when we met (unbeknownst to me, despite plenty of room to be honest proffered on my part). She - I can't believe I'm going to call her equally uncalled for, undeserved & malicious attacks on me some form of decent - took it upon herself to first contact me *privately* when she was well-strung out on his oh-so charming words, after she found out 9 mos. into it. In French slang... de la chatch (sp?) Her psycho shit made us both ill. (That's not an invitation to annoy me, privately btw).
But maybe this is desperation? More narcissism? Or your best grace and etiquette in a sensitive situation or is it just an "obligatory" service that you render for the other women you hurt with your grotesque behavior? I've heard you've taken a lap or two round the cheater's block. "Ethical poly", my ass.
You are disgusting for writing that shit to me. I'm sure he's given you some of the martyr routine, another one of his tricks. I don't get why women fall for that load or behave like you, but you're not the first he's run that *cough* seduction game on and you're not the first to nut up.
You clearly don't have a clue about love & the complexities of our 5 year relationship, if your guess is what I've said to him comes close to 'browbeating'. Why would I not express myself? And actually, he's been there to listen. It's called going through our process and it's none of your goddamn business.