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Runn off some of this energy but build it also. My mental energy is converting I am visualizing it now. Anyways I read part of this book from Tawyna's table about multiple orgasmic. Written with Mantak and the other Chia. It is representing to me this seemingly overwhelming theme and aspect of my life in the forefront right now regarding sexuality. Good thing to be thinking about while you're young and in general I suppose. As a huge driver, ok so I'm doing my mental masturbation right now I can feel just "talking" out loud to hear myself talk. So... the book says that masterbation is self-cultivation from the taoist way of looking at things.
So I don't have a counselor and three of my family members suggested that I find one. Probably because I wasn't taking responsibility for that part of myself for a little while their. But anywho It is a somewhat pertinent question that I have decided to town so that people can't label me and shuffle me around even when I lean on them a little we are all supposed to lean not be so disconnected.
Still not knowing which way to turn for employment. Only energized by the arts I give no farts a bout other work it seems only a distraction to me and is. but a vehicle yes this I know. 10 rounds of thought per minute! Jeez!
I still need my work to be physical that is what I want and what my body needs!
10-28-10
Whoa seriously, this energy thing! ha I didn't even finish this entry and post it and here I am days later thinking the same thing! What do I do with all this extra energy? And noticing that I haven't made myself do yoga in many days. Still been stressing in the mind, albeit, a little less than the previous days before that but still!
All this energy from my dreams needing to go straight to some art form. Devious. Talkin with beej about Seattle, why? He lived there. Went to a steel heads Game. Charged and ready to just scream
The writer's block Questio is a good one I will have to think about it for a while. Anyways Today I am thinking about my crazy life situation dreams and the lovely one where Michael came up to me smiling and I hugged and kissed hime and he squeezed me
So I don't have a counselor and three of my family members suggested that I find one. Probably because I wasn't taking responsibility for that part of myself for a little while their. But anywho It is a somewhat pertinent question that I have decided to town so that people can't label me and shuffle me around even when I lean on them a little we are all supposed to lean not be so disconnected.
Still not knowing which way to turn for employment. Only energized by the arts I give no farts a bout other work it seems only a distraction to me and is. but a vehicle yes this I know. 10 rounds of thought per minute! Jeez!
I still need my work to be physical that is what I want and what my body needs!
10-28-10
Whoa seriously, this energy thing! ha I didn't even finish this entry and post it and here I am days later thinking the same thing! What do I do with all this extra energy? And noticing that I haven't made myself do yoga in many days. Still been stressing in the mind, albeit, a little less than the previous days before that but still!
All this energy from my dreams needing to go straight to some art form. Devious. Talkin with beej about Seattle, why? He lived there. Went to a steel heads Game. Charged and ready to just scream
The writer's block Questio is a good one I will have to think about it for a while. Anyways Today I am thinking about my crazy life situation dreams and the lovely one where Michael came up to me smiling and I hugged and kissed hime and he squeezed me