I mentioned in my last post that I was in a crappy situation and whateva, that's changed now. We finally got a place, well like 2 months ago. So yeah now I can get back into some old habits. I went to the doctor yesterday and wanted to shoot myself after getting on the scale. I honestly cannot believe how fucking fat I am! My fucking thyroid has ( Read more... )

Its been a long while, here's a short update.......

I'm still FAT and DISGUSTING! It's almost impossible for me to lose any weight. I hate myself so much! And for the time being I can't do anything about it because of the situation I'm in.

HOPEFULLY in the very near future, we will be out of this situation and I can go back to old habits and some ( Read more... )

Just some good 'ol Thinspo


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I'm so horrible at keeping up with things. I get into the mode of doing something and then a few days or weeks later I'm outa that mode and onto another. I'm a huge "change" kind of person. I need different things going on in my life and I don't like things to stay the same for very long. Thats probably why I get sick of the places we've lived and ( Read more... )

  I decided tonight I'm going to try something different with my workout, cause I don't always want to workout right when I get up in the morning and sometimes I just don't get a chance to. I was trying to workout in the morning and then again at night, but yeah, like I said that's not going very well.
 So, when I get the energy or sometime in the ( Read more... )

  I have been away for awhile, sorry. I kinda lost track of myself and a lot of things. But I'm back and I'm really needing this journal right now. Because of stupid choices and whatnot, I've gained a ridiculous amount. :(
 So one of my New Years resolutions is too get rid of that plus a lot more. This is the year of change for me. Not just with my ( Read more... )

I've been so busy with work and my shitty life, I haven't came around in awhile. Just wanted to say I'm still here. I have to go to work in a few minutes, but I'll catch up later.

Life has been just too crazy and stressful and depressing, thats why I haven't been around much. My weight is just being ridiculous. I've been bouncing back and forth between 132 and 135. Its making me crazy. I just wanna get out of the 130s. Why is this so fucking difficult?!
I wanna crawl in a hole.........

I got "the burn" pills and hoodia pills last week. They are working good so far, I think. I'm almost at my goal of 5 lbs lost by tomorrow. I have .8 to go. I didn't think it was gonna happen, but surprisingly with the new diet pills, its working out. This week I'm hoping to lose another 5 lbs and then I'll be at 129. out of the 130s, yay! I wish ( Read more... )

WTF! I don't understand what's happening. I keep gaining. I dont understand how. I only had a salad today. I feel so fucking discusting, I want to die. I'm going tomorrow and getting some diet pills and hoodia pills. This is just fucking ridiculous. I'm also going to plan a workout schedule, even though I don't have my gym membership anymore. I ( Read more... )