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What is it thats still bothering me? why do I have this empty feeling in the pit of my stomach? I feel I should be happy, things are going much better for me then a lot of people. I got my college degree in a field I like, and I work job that actually lets me use it. Not only that, but unlike many people, I don't hate my job. Sure I have the days where i wake up and don't want to go, but i dont dread it. I enjoy it. It isn't my dream job, but i get to work with music, something I love, and i get to share my love of music with other people. And even more important my job goes past just music. I get to help shape young minds, i get to watch these kids grow up and see what type of people become, and I get the satisfaction of knowing that I was an influence on some of them. How many people can say that? And my job gives me time to pursue my other passions. Yeah I work a lot, but i still have time to play music, read comics, and hangout with my friends. My friends.... Theres another thing i have to be happy about. I may not get to see them often, and some of them maybe in other parts of the world now, but there all amazing. Yeah, some of them can be a pain sometimes, but thats part of what makes them who they are, with out that they would be different people and who knows what things would be like. For the most part they're all real understanding and support me even though it can be frustrating dealing with me sometimes. I don't think I can ask for better ones. I don't get it. I have so much to feel good about, and for the most part I do, but at the end of the day, I cant help but feel something isnt right, or something is missing. I lay in bed for hours with a pain in my gut trying to figure it out, but i cant. bah........