Nov 10, 2006 07:41
Tonight i went to a church coffeehouse and read some of Jeremiah (loved verse 20:7) and John and 1 John and some James.
i don't buy the schpiel, but i get the schpiel well. i speak alone and scream by myself for the most part.
It's sad to miss someone who doesn't love you anymore. Sad to long for days that will not go by.
Sad to be clung to by someone slipping their fingers into your heart while clinging to your mind's conceptions of what that might be like if you were with somebody else. The one that matters too much. How i would have loved to watch the Empire strike back with you, babie but you'd have to care.
i will not be controlled.
i will not back down from the micro- or macro- perspectives.
Bitch or die lying. i'm much less unhappy being honest, but much more alone in doing so.