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[amysteriousound]

i've shed more tears on this subject than anything else in my life.

i love my family.
and feeling that i'd be alone after speaking up scared me.
but i'm glad i didn't burn all those bridges.
i only wish i had more courage to speak and perhaps reach inside and clear his eyes.

though the man says he forgives me,
it was not forgiveness i asked for...
i fear that i cannot bring back the father that left me when this feud started.
i can't do it alone.

though you may hate me: v,s,p,h.
i hope you understand where i come from.
i know you guys are as tired of hearing about it as i am.

it`s just. i was most angry how it wasn`t about Lolo anymore.

i miss us.
you don`t even know.