1 more day til i go home....
one more day until i come home for thanksgiving... thank god i never thought it would come... i miss home so much and it will be nice to not have to return after less than 2 days.. but i'll be home for 5 days!! i'm so happy 2 pm tomm will not come soon enough... i spent today cleaning, cleaning, and guess what even more cleaning... and packing too... i think i'm completely ready now to go home... i have so much shit to do over vacation... like get my transcripts sent out and go grocery shopping and babysit Jasmin... which is the highlight of my vacation cause she is so adorable and plus i can make money which we all know i need to do... today was an interesting day because kyle msged me... i was like what the fuck does he want now... it was an interesting conversation... he wants me back and says he'll never hurt me again and he wants to see me over break... the stupid fuck can't take being alone... guess his ex wasn't so dumb afterall since i think she was the one that broke it off with him... i stayed strong tho even though i wanted to break down and cried... i told him no and that i don't want him back and that he's not worth my time especially when he's just gonna hurt me again... if he truly likes me and all as he says he does he will know to not take no for an answer and come prove that he cares about me and gain my trust and love back... but i doubt he will do this cause like many guys he thinks that when we tell them we don't care about them that it's truly the way we feel... yeah fucking right... why else do i still think about him all the time although i can't think about him anymore because it's not fair to Ryan to be thinking about Kyle... Ryan means a lot to me and he's there for me unlike Kyle... i wonder if the test thingy i took today was true or not... it said that kyle is someone i care a lot about but it will never work out between us and that ryan is the guy i truly like and all.. i would love to stay and talk but i'm off to go get patty's car at the stadium... i might write a part 2 tonight if i have time...byebye