i appreciate every damn thing around me, including YOU

[amyakieran]

i did so many things by accident correctly.
like losing my identity
chopping my dreads off
and taking out my lip ring.
it was all preparation for this.. GIFT

i can't believe it.
but i have to.
sometimes i think i'm dead and this is my afterlife
then i tell myself to wake up and i see the world around me
i see how things are faltering...
fading.
i don't like that feeling. i feel myself fading with it.
then i watch people pull themselves into it.
they create what they intend.
and that's beautiful.
it makes this world REAL.
they can't stand the feeling of nonexistence either.
they just don't know that's what they are uncomfortable with.
and.
i guess.
because.
um. nietzsche said that you shouldn't say you are right, especially if you are right...
that is why i must leave this livejournal world. i am becoming too obsessed with this. too obsessed with being right... when i know i've got to be wrong for a while. i will still read your journals. but i think i will stop commenting. until i can get over myself. idk if you care or not. but i need to do this for me. this whole declaration thing.
yep yep yep.
life is weird