texture, ritual, butches and lending an ear to the universe...
Fair exchange...
You feel contented and benevolent under this influence. You are at peace with the world and want to share your feelings with everyone whom you meet. Friends, in particular, may be the beneficiaries of your generosity, as you may benefit from theirs. In either case you both will benefit, because everything done under this influence becomes a fair exchange in the long run. This time is favorable for all financial enterprises, especially those involving foreign investments, medicine or the law. Any legal matters decided during this time will also work out to your benefit. A new friendship or love relationship that begins now will be beneficial. Such a relationship will bring out your best qualities and can truly be described as a growth relationship. You are attracted to high-minded and upright people.
i'm smoking the last cigarette in my pack, making a wish on my lucky. i keep wishing for the same thing over again or a combination of the same things over again. put my two fingers on my 8th chakra, close my eyes and wish hard. another ritual that lends texture to the day to day motions. i leave myself a trail, give myself something to look forward to and with that the path becomes illuminated. i got a massage today, as a part of my life time health care package from the clinic i volunteered to build the walls for--i love skill trade and am a total touch junky, two good things to know about me. so the massage which was given to me by green, scorpio and an older butch, always feels a little like i'm getting the shit kicked out of me but i convince myself its the healing happening. take it from ion charged copper bracelets and things like that, the magic is in the believer, no? next week we start acupuncture.
theres been a gust of wind and suddenly so many things have changed direction...
it has been a busy few weeks. filled with the energy of live music and new songs ive learned to love, ups and downs, confusion, laughter, good communication, sleepless long nites and at times long deep kisses. i'm feeling grateful. i'm learning to dance again. its been a great summer so far and my heart is feeling open to experiencing the world. i'm working hard to not misconduct myself in earthly matters and developing strong friendships with a basis in direct communication and honesty--its totally changed my life. you should try it, there are few things in the world like having all the cards laid out on the table as i've recently learned. even owen has taken to it and has nothing but praises. ive found it that right in the midsts of having and honest, candid, direct communication moment i get really proud of myself for being brave enough to say whats on my mind and clear the air.
zari is working with me these days...
which fills the day with more incredible queer moments than you can imagine. we spent our lunch break sharing chana marsala and whole raw almonds in the secret garden talking about the PERFECT strap on harness and the ultimate dildo shape. and that awkward moment when yr in bed with shorts, a boner and a goofy look on yr face waiting for yr unsuspecting girlfriend--it made me proud to be in this moment of butch solidarity. maybe you dont know what i'm talking about, whatever... project: DIYG (do-it-yrGAYself) harnesses custom made. my jaw is literally on the floor thinking of the possibilities. im still so happy we had that conversation. heres a funny excerpt from zari and my day together.
amy--god, i love this song.
(silence)
zari--imagine you dated alicia keys?
a--wait, does she love me for me or is she just with me becos of my money and industry connections?
z--no, like in a relationship. like she wrote this song about you!
a--oh god, i cant even imagine...
(both smile)
You feel contented and benevolent under this influence. You are at peace with the world and want to share your feelings with everyone whom you meet. Friends, in particular, may be the beneficiaries of your generosity, as you may benefit from theirs. In either case you both will benefit, because everything done under this influence becomes a fair exchange in the long run. This time is favorable for all financial enterprises, especially those involving foreign investments, medicine or the law. Any legal matters decided during this time will also work out to your benefit. A new friendship or love relationship that begins now will be beneficial. Such a relationship will bring out your best qualities and can truly be described as a growth relationship. You are attracted to high-minded and upright people.
i'm smoking the last cigarette in my pack, making a wish on my lucky. i keep wishing for the same thing over again or a combination of the same things over again. put my two fingers on my 8th chakra, close my eyes and wish hard. another ritual that lends texture to the day to day motions. i leave myself a trail, give myself something to look forward to and with that the path becomes illuminated. i got a massage today, as a part of my life time health care package from the clinic i volunteered to build the walls for--i love skill trade and am a total touch junky, two good things to know about me. so the massage which was given to me by green, scorpio and an older butch, always feels a little like i'm getting the shit kicked out of me but i convince myself its the healing happening. take it from ion charged copper bracelets and things like that, the magic is in the believer, no? next week we start acupuncture.
theres been a gust of wind and suddenly so many things have changed direction...
it has been a busy few weeks. filled with the energy of live music and new songs ive learned to love, ups and downs, confusion, laughter, good communication, sleepless long nites and at times long deep kisses. i'm feeling grateful. i'm learning to dance again. its been a great summer so far and my heart is feeling open to experiencing the world. i'm working hard to not misconduct myself in earthly matters and developing strong friendships with a basis in direct communication and honesty--its totally changed my life. you should try it, there are few things in the world like having all the cards laid out on the table as i've recently learned. even owen has taken to it and has nothing but praises. ive found it that right in the midsts of having and honest, candid, direct communication moment i get really proud of myself for being brave enough to say whats on my mind and clear the air.
zari is working with me these days...
which fills the day with more incredible queer moments than you can imagine. we spent our lunch break sharing chana marsala and whole raw almonds in the secret garden talking about the PERFECT strap on harness and the ultimate dildo shape. and that awkward moment when yr in bed with shorts, a boner and a goofy look on yr face waiting for yr unsuspecting girlfriend--it made me proud to be in this moment of butch solidarity. maybe you dont know what i'm talking about, whatever... project: DIYG (do-it-yrGAYself) harnesses custom made. my jaw is literally on the floor thinking of the possibilities. im still so happy we had that conversation. heres a funny excerpt from zari and my day together.
amy--god, i love this song.
(silence)
zari--imagine you dated alicia keys?
a--wait, does she love me for me or is she just with me becos of my money and industry connections?
z--no, like in a relationship. like she wrote this song about you!
a--oh god, i cant even imagine...
(both smile)