My boring fucking life
Tell me can i fuck up my life anymore than what i have already done? i'm serious wtf. i cant do anything right. at all. i cant get my fucking ass out of bed to take my car to the dealership, i cant get my FAT fucking ass out of bed to go to fucking class. WTF. what is wrong with me. i know it's cause im not getting any sleep at night but that is because i cant sleep. why just lay in bed and do nothing when i can be out of bed and getting things done. i have a test in speech tomorrow and i have a feeling that i'm gonna fail it. i have tried to study but every fucking time i either get interupted by a fucking phone call or i fucking pass out. oh well. eventually i will get my life together. hopefully in the spring. i really need to shape up. having brad kinda helps with it. he tries to keep me on track and tries to call me to see if i am up and headed to class. it doesnt always work though. especially when he calls 5 mins before i am supposed to be to class. i am definately falling for him. my entire life revolves around him. everything i do or say seems like it has something to do with him. sam and brad really dont like each other. that upsets me but there is nothing that i can do about it. that is there problem but i do love both of them dearly and it hurts to see them fight on the phone sometimes. hopefully someday it will be better. sam's comment on her not coming to our wedding kinda upset me. im not saying that we are having one but still. i dont know if she was joking about it but it still upset me. i just saw a country musice video of The Warren Brothers. They too were making fun of michael jackson. seems like everyone is these days. There is a New Found Glory concert on Dec 1. I sorta want to go to it but brad is gonna be flying home that day so i have to take him to the airport. so that is basically out of the question. well i need to get going. im gonna go have a cig and pull my laundry out of the dryers then go to bed. speaking of smoking i really need to quit that shit. it's so fucking hard though. hopefully someday soon i will do it though. well peace out. hopefully u sleep better than i do.
Amber
Amber