pray
taken from a church i attend sporadically on how prayer and faith can change your life, and how it takes a lot of practice:
You show up over and over again, and the pattern is what changes you.
a back post from july 15th:
the thing is, she can't save my life right now.
something else. riding my bike, going to church, playing soccer, cooking my own food, going to the farmer's market, laughing with s, something else has to save my life right now.
something i can trust, deeply, something i can believe in without doubt, something i don't feel disappointed by.
it won't be my mother, it won't be paris. it won't be beer or 250 great shows a year. it won't even be a crystal clear lake at 8am, losing ten pounds, or being able to touch my toes. it won't be my friends.
and, i know, i don't need a savior. i didn't need one then, i don't need one now. but i do need saving.
i'm not denying it's complicated.
You show up over and over again, and the pattern is what changes you.
a back post from july 15th:
the thing is, she can't save my life right now.
something else. riding my bike, going to church, playing soccer, cooking my own food, going to the farmer's market, laughing with s, something else has to save my life right now.
something i can trust, deeply, something i can believe in without doubt, something i don't feel disappointed by.
it won't be my mother, it won't be paris. it won't be beer or 250 great shows a year. it won't even be a crystal clear lake at 8am, losing ten pounds, or being able to touch my toes. it won't be my friends.
and, i know, i don't need a savior. i didn't need one then, i don't need one now. but i do need saving.
i'm not denying it's complicated.