emoness
so after endless times of openning up Microsoft Word and coming up blank I have come to the conclusion that I have too many things on my mind to write... and thats what stops me most of the time from being able to do my freaking papers... I have come to the conclusion with the help of others that I am a weak person... one of the weakest people I know... I say that like I really know myself... like in the mall today when people were talking about me.. I wanted sooo badly to just stop and confront them.. not in a I'm gonna kick your ass for talking shit kind of way... but more stand up for myself... and be fucking strong for once.. but after thinking of a million things I SHOULD HAVE done I realized it was pointless and that I basically live in regret because I don't ever go through with it... and the fact that people like Liz and Dmo find me as an easy target because I am so weak proves to me that its obvious to people... I like myself as a person... I really do... but I am just weak when it comes to others and when I am alone... and I have realized that until I learn to stand up for myself I will always be hurt, and care too much about what other people think... and have a need to fit in with someone.. its really not right... like a lot of things I have noticed lately... I have come to the overall conclusion that Sunday is not my day... and that altough I love my friends to death... I need something more.. someone more.. I guess I'll always think this way until I learn to be a stronger person