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I've been angry a lot lately. And snappy. And really stressed.
I've realized that my so-called freedom is an illusion, because I can't make the choices I really want to make without serious criticisms being thrown at me. In order to avoid making my personal life even more miserable, I exchange what would make me happy for what others want me to do.
I want a relationship because I desperately need to feel loved and attractive and worth something right now. But that's another happiness I can't have.
All my free time has been spent sleeping.
I've lost touch with most of my friends.
So, sorry everyone. I'm a pretty bad friend.
I'm not there a lot. I don't know what to do to fix it.
I can't control anything right now.
So, the whole purpose of this post:
HIATUS.
I don't know how long I'll be gone, or when I'll be back.
I need time to think, time to breathe, though I've no long how long either will take.
I've realized that my so-called freedom is an illusion, because I can't make the choices I really want to make without serious criticisms being thrown at me. In order to avoid making my personal life even more miserable, I exchange what would make me happy for what others want me to do.
I want a relationship because I desperately need to feel loved and attractive and worth something right now. But that's another happiness I can't have.
All my free time has been spent sleeping.
I've lost touch with most of my friends.
So, sorry everyone. I'm a pretty bad friend.
I'm not there a lot. I don't know what to do to fix it.
I can't control anything right now.
So, the whole purpose of this post:
HIATUS.
I don't know how long I'll be gone, or when I'll be back.
I need time to think, time to breathe, though I've no long how long either will take.