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I am very frustrated right now. Very.
- Of my $6000 savings accumulated during the last year and a half, I just spent all but $1000 on a vehicle to help my mom out, and as of yesterday the final grand has been spent on URI books/parking pass/admittance application fees/enrollment deposit/commute gas. I am now living from paycheck to paycheck. And I still need to buy 2 more books (which will cost me another $175) before October 4th, when I have book-based exams in the classes those books are for.
- And both my parents still claim me as "dependent," so financial aid assumes that one of them/both of them are supporting me, which neither of them are (my mom can't afford to, my dad --- ha, that's a laugh), so my financial aid is sliced down as if I have an income that I don't. I'm supposed to magically pay the remaining $6000 for my tuition, when I only make just over $9000 in the course of the year.
- I need to invest in a laptop very soon, because my computer is starting to go and my dad is asserting that it's HIS, and I don't have the $800 for something decent that will last me.
- I work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I get up at 6 in the morning so I can be at my first class by 9:00. Then I'm on campus until 5:30-6 at night. Then I still have an hour commute back home with traffic, and somehow scheduling homework and sleep in my "free time" somewhere during the week.
I see all these kids around me who are there on a free ride - mommy and daddy bought them their cars, laptops, paid for their dorms, tuition, books - and don't have a care in the world. Their only 'job' is to go to class, join a sorority and keep their skin tanned orange, whatever. The only reason I agreed to go to URI right now was because my brother said he'd help me out - he'd help me with another car to make commuting to work/school/the house a lot easier. But he promised that he'd help me months ago, and he never followed through. I knew I couldn't do all this on my own, which is the only reason I agreed - because he offered to help me. Now I've been forced into a situation that is only going to get worse - either I'm going to fail my classes, get fired from my job, get sick from being exhausted, or I'll go back to the easy-going CCRI and have my dad change the locks to the house because I'm "a failure."
I want to drop my classes already. I can't handle it. If you're awesome and gung-ho and you can do it all, good for you - but I can't.
Moral of my story: URI is proving to be one giant disappointment. I loathe it.
- Of my $6000 savings accumulated during the last year and a half, I just spent all but $1000 on a vehicle to help my mom out, and as of yesterday the final grand has been spent on URI books/parking pass/admittance application fees/enrollment deposit/commute gas. I am now living from paycheck to paycheck. And I still need to buy 2 more books (which will cost me another $175) before October 4th, when I have book-based exams in the classes those books are for.
- And both my parents still claim me as "dependent," so financial aid assumes that one of them/both of them are supporting me, which neither of them are (my mom can't afford to, my dad --- ha, that's a laugh), so my financial aid is sliced down as if I have an income that I don't. I'm supposed to magically pay the remaining $6000 for my tuition, when I only make just over $9000 in the course of the year.
- I need to invest in a laptop very soon, because my computer is starting to go and my dad is asserting that it's HIS, and I don't have the $800 for something decent that will last me.
- I work Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I get up at 6 in the morning so I can be at my first class by 9:00. Then I'm on campus until 5:30-6 at night. Then I still have an hour commute back home with traffic, and somehow scheduling homework and sleep in my "free time" somewhere during the week.
I see all these kids around me who are there on a free ride - mommy and daddy bought them their cars, laptops, paid for their dorms, tuition, books - and don't have a care in the world. Their only 'job' is to go to class, join a sorority and keep their skin tanned orange, whatever. The only reason I agreed to go to URI right now was because my brother said he'd help me out - he'd help me with another car to make commuting to work/school/the house a lot easier. But he promised that he'd help me months ago, and he never followed through. I knew I couldn't do all this on my own, which is the only reason I agreed - because he offered to help me. Now I've been forced into a situation that is only going to get worse - either I'm going to fail my classes, get fired from my job, get sick from being exhausted, or I'll go back to the easy-going CCRI and have my dad change the locks to the house because I'm "a failure."
I want to drop my classes already. I can't handle it. If you're awesome and gung-ho and you can do it all, good for you - but I can't.
Moral of my story: URI is proving to be one giant disappointment. I loathe it.