The space that's in between insane and insecure...
Weird fucking dreams last night...so very very weird. One included great sexins, the other had me laying down the law with my family and making certain members of it stop being bags of douche. But that's for another time.
So it's November, which means it's almost December, Now a few entries ago, I mentioned how I hate the winter, and I was told that I was wrong, because of my eyes and sex to keep warm...both of which I can agree with to an extent I guess...I just hate the winter in general. I live in NY, which means we get black snow and sludge and other joyous polluted type precipitation, which is just one of the things I hate about this season. As far as the sex to keep warm goes, yeah, that's fin and all, but it's fleeting. When winter rolls around I want something to take away the doom and gloom of short days and overcast skies, as well as the blistering cold that is this neighborhood. As I live in the coldest place in the world, don't believe me eh? Trust me, I've been up north for the winter, and it pales in comparison to the frostbitten nipples that is Yonkers/Woodlawn. It's not that I hate the season I guess, it's more that I hate the weather, and snow...Christ on a pogo stick I fucking hate the cold.
I'm not being mopey or anything, I'm just in a mood as of late. People are pissing me off, family is pissing me off, I'm pissing me off. Why? 'Tis the season I suppose. It's like lately, everything just has me hating the world. I'm not lonely, but I do feel alone. I'm not sad, but I wanna cry. I always get like this around this time of year, some call it seasonal depression...I call it annoying.
Anyhow, Halloween was fucking awesome, the tribe came out and partied, Kevin Sorbo was there, as was a giant Tea Bag and other great characters, including but not limited to a dead nurse from a deleted scene in a movie, Cloud, And what can only be described as the creepiest red neck Skynard fan there is. All in all there was much fin to be had, and beers, and Jack and what have you.
I had some family from Ireland over last week, and they will be around for another week or so, I love having family from abroad over, its the accents, they make me feel all giddy and Irish. Plus they smell like Ireland, which has its own unique scent, much like NY does, and Fla. Its subtle, but its there.
Aside from that its the same old same old. Still looking for a job, still poor, and hating it, but, I get by. I haven't slept well in weeks, and my dreams just keep destroying my mind. Normally, by this time of year, I've seen The Cruxshadows, sadly, they did not do NY this year, but they mentioned something about doing a US tour this coming Spring, which I am all for. Seeing them in Sept. / Oct. is awesome, but I wouldn't mind a warmer climate show. Something I can wear shorts to. I don't really have anything of interest to talk about today, I just felt like typing to see if anything good would come out...Better luck next time champ.
Until then...
So it's November, which means it's almost December, Now a few entries ago, I mentioned how I hate the winter, and I was told that I was wrong, because of my eyes and sex to keep warm...both of which I can agree with to an extent I guess...I just hate the winter in general. I live in NY, which means we get black snow and sludge and other joyous polluted type precipitation, which is just one of the things I hate about this season. As far as the sex to keep warm goes, yeah, that's fin and all, but it's fleeting. When winter rolls around I want something to take away the doom and gloom of short days and overcast skies, as well as the blistering cold that is this neighborhood. As I live in the coldest place in the world, don't believe me eh? Trust me, I've been up north for the winter, and it pales in comparison to the frostbitten nipples that is Yonkers/Woodlawn. It's not that I hate the season I guess, it's more that I hate the weather, and snow...Christ on a pogo stick I fucking hate the cold.
I'm not being mopey or anything, I'm just in a mood as of late. People are pissing me off, family is pissing me off, I'm pissing me off. Why? 'Tis the season I suppose. It's like lately, everything just has me hating the world. I'm not lonely, but I do feel alone. I'm not sad, but I wanna cry. I always get like this around this time of year, some call it seasonal depression...I call it annoying.
Anyhow, Halloween was fucking awesome, the tribe came out and partied, Kevin Sorbo was there, as was a giant Tea Bag and other great characters, including but not limited to a dead nurse from a deleted scene in a movie, Cloud, And what can only be described as the creepiest red neck Skynard fan there is. All in all there was much fin to be had, and beers, and Jack and what have you.
I had some family from Ireland over last week, and they will be around for another week or so, I love having family from abroad over, its the accents, they make me feel all giddy and Irish. Plus they smell like Ireland, which has its own unique scent, much like NY does, and Fla. Its subtle, but its there.
Aside from that its the same old same old. Still looking for a job, still poor, and hating it, but, I get by. I haven't slept well in weeks, and my dreams just keep destroying my mind. Normally, by this time of year, I've seen The Cruxshadows, sadly, they did not do NY this year, but they mentioned something about doing a US tour this coming Spring, which I am all for. Seeing them in Sept. / Oct. is awesome, but I wouldn't mind a warmer climate show. Something I can wear shorts to. I don't really have anything of interest to talk about today, I just felt like typing to see if anything good would come out...Better luck next time champ.
Until then...