Missing you
How long does it take to truly let go of people. I lost my grandfather last year and the pain is still so intense I cant seem to let it out for fear I will lose what little control I think I have. He was was my world (my world in a dad like sense) and its because of him that I received Christ as my savior he helped me understand what seeking the heart of Jesus really meant. He played such a huge part in my salvation we had a bond like nothing I have ever known. There is something special about the bonds that are created when someone leads you to Christ. Anyhow, I guess I am suffering from a broken heart and I fear I may be upset with God for taking him home before I was ready to let him go. I have been trying to bury all the pain resulting from losing him. I think I am now at the point where something inside of me is going to explode if I don't grieve this loss. I don't know how to do this I bury everything painful.... May God help me... I apologize if this post seems a little jumbled but I am about to burst at the seams so my focus is not the best today. please keep me in prayer ...