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AdidasBoy20043: back
FenrisAloisWolf: k
AdidasBoy20043: ok
FenrisAloisWolf: one sec im looking for soomerhing
AdidasBoy20043: ahhhhhhh ok
FenrisAloisWolf: ok i foudn it
FenrisAloisWolf: sorry about that.
AdidasBoy20043: its ok
FenrisAloisWolf: so what sup?
AdidasBoy20043: nothing
AdidasBoy20043: i got candy
AdidasBoy20043: for after school
FenrisAloisWolf: thats cool.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: mrs. reubenstein used to sell chips...but now the new principal and everything
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: i hate when someone new comes and changes everything
AdidasBoy20043: i saw ur 7th grade picture
FenrisAloisWolf: really? and who showed you this lol
FenrisAloisWolf: (i think i had thick glasses then)
AdidasBoy20043: my friend heather
AdidasBoy20043: the girls house i went to after
FenrisAloisWolf: lol how did she get a hold of that picture lol
AdidasBoy20043: in the yearbook
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: i kow but was she in my grade?
AdidasBoy20043: u looked soooooo cute
FenrisAloisWolf: lol
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: her name is heather chambers
AdidasBoy20043: she looked dorky back then
AdidasBoy20043: she said
FenrisAloisWolf: im thinking to myself...i would have given anything to say to someone when i was a freshan what your saying to me.
I dont remember her =\....i feel bad now lol.
AdidasBoy20043: its ok
AdidasBoy20043: do u have a year book for Helen a fort
FenrisAloisWolf: no...i lost it a long time ago.
AdidasBoy20043: bad boy
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: lol i wanted to forget.
AdidasBoy20043: nahhhhh
AdidasBoy20043: dont worry pat u can trust me
FenrisAloisWolf: th and 8th grade was weird for me. it was when i first realizing what i was...considered. um even though i was in a "relationship" with someone...i never really considered my self to be gay until really 9th grade. i mean i have always been... it was just hard for me to get over that denial. thats why i was like whoa....you came out at 12
FenrisAloisWolf: i know.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: i didn't come out in middle school
AdidasBoy20043: because it was ruff
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah....i didnt have many problems there...i was always a really strong kid and people where either nice to me or didnt care. i mean its not even like im all that physical. my problems where more emotional than anything else.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: when i was in middle school people made me feel bad
FenrisAloisWolf: like i would see this girl and i would tell myself i like her...and then i would see someone like...for example frank jackson...and just start acting like i was a ditz.
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah i can understand... i just sorta ignored peoples comments...
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: I didnt really let them bother me...i used to be really fat when i was younger, so i developed a thick skin.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: i think u were cute
FenrisAloisWolf: well even though i still weigh about 230 i feel better about myself and could really care less what other people thinkn.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah, your really cute too. i like your eyes.
AdidasBoy20043: i way 180lbs
AdidasBoy20043: thanks
AdidasBoy20043: i love my eyes
AdidasBoy20043: and urs
AdidasBoy20043: ;-)
FenrisAloisWolf: i wish...thats what i weighed in 7th grade...but thats when i started to slim down a bit.
FenrisAloisWolf: thanks
AdidasBoy20043: u welcome
AdidasBoy20043: i loved it when we first met and u looked right at me
AdidasBoy20043: that was sooo cool
FenrisAloisWolf: Do you find it hard...well i find it hard to relate to other guys really...because im so used to hiding my feelings from them.
Ur welcome.
I get so involved in the inside, but then I have to let it go and i found that hard...thats why most of my friends are females.
FenrisAloisWolf: i mean when i first saw you, i was like...this is interesting. because i knew your were different.
AdidasBoy20043: how was i different
FenrisAloisWolf: Your attitude...your body language all suggested that you were different... like an openmindedness, you know? Sorry, Im really into physcology..
AdidasBoy20043: its ok
AdidasBoy20043: so im different then other guys
FenrisAloisWolf: like you didnt have any preconcieved notions about anything, like you wanted to see for yourself before you gave into stereotypes...
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: so what are you interests and hobbies and such?
AdidasBoy20043: hang on hun
FenrisAloisWolf: how did your parents react?
AdidasBoy20043: take it
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: my dad knew all along because one night i was watching cher on tv
AdidasBoy20043: and that was 10
AdidasBoy20043: and my mom didn't belive me at first
FenrisAloisWolf: where they upset...or did the understand?
AdidasBoy20043: they understand
AdidasBoy20043: see when ur over here u can be open
FenrisAloisWolf: i wish it would be that easy for me lol. my parents would never understand. the were brought up through the 30s
AdidasBoy20043: wow
AdidasBoy20043: but u can be open in my house
AdidasBoy20043: like do anything gay
FenrisAloisWolf: *nods* but i would feel so akward. its like wearing a pair of shoes that have been sitting in your closet for 16 years and still havent been broken in yet.
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: youve never been in a relationship?
AdidasBoy20043: once
AdidasBoy20043: but he hurt me
FenrisAloisWolf: the first ones always do dont they?
AdidasBoy20043: no
AdidasBoy20043: the first one is suppose to be the best
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah... shane just decided one day... lets just be friends... im not gay anymore....i mean dont get me wrong in a awy it was the best....he was my friend and then after a while i guess he got bored with me...its funny how real people get after there not having fun anymore...and then he and his family moved.
FenrisAloisWolf: but he was a dork and whateva
FenrisAloisWolf: How did he hurt you?
AdidasBoy20043: hang on hun
AdidasBoy20043: i wouldn't hurt u evere
AdidasBoy20043: ever
AdidasBoy20043: no matter what we will always be friends
AdidasBoy20043: :-)
FenrisAloisWolf: friends. i guess ive watied all my life for that someone...and then i come to the relization that im in no way ready for a realtionship...and it wouldnt be a good idea at them time and then an oppurtunity presents itself and i act on my better judgement and say lets be friends...and thats the type of frienship that last for a long time....thanks.:-)
AdidasBoy20043: u welcome
FenrisAloisWolf: *akward silience*
AdidasBoy20043: i wont see u until monday
FenrisAloisWolf: really? why not?
AdidasBoy20043: ummmm because i dont see u in the halls
FenrisAloisWolf: oh i was thinking tommorow is freiday.
FenrisAloisWolf: i mean i forgot tommorow was friday
AdidasBoy20043: lol
AdidasBoy20043: blonde
FenrisAloisWolf: lol.
AdidasBoy20043: lol
AdidasBoy20043: im a natural Blonde
FenrisAloisWolf: so...whats your answers?
AdidasBoy20043: light light blonde
AdidasBoy20043: but i dyed it
FenrisAloisWolf: im a brown hair brown eyes
AdidasBoy20043: lol i was kidding
FenrisAloisWolf: i know lol
AdidasBoy20043: lol ok
AdidasBoy20043: remember we were on the bus
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah lol
AdidasBoy20043: u were looking at me
FenrisAloisWolf: well yeah...i was trying to get into the conversation. lol you were doing most of the talking.
AdidasBoy20043: i know
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: i just finished watching meet joe black...it was a pretty good movie.
what type of movies do you like/?
AdidasBoy20043: scary and funny
AdidasBoy20043: well 2 romantic movies
AdidasBoy20043: and u have to guess them
FenrisAloisWolf: i like funny and drama/romance. yeah i know obvious ones are pointless.
AdidasBoy20043: i like Tiatnic and pearl Harbor
AdidasBoy20043: u wanna hear something
FenrisAloisWolf: sure
AdidasBoy20043: i thought u were the hottest guy in class
AdidasBoy20043: for real
AdidasBoy20043: and i thought u were str8
FenrisAloisWolf: and now..
AdidasBoy20043: so thats why i was scared to tell u that i was gay plus i thought u would make fun of me
FenrisAloisWolf: i dont make fun of anyone lol, but i understand where you comming from...if i didnt think you fur sure you were gay i would had opened my moth either
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: im sure u thought i was gay from day one
AdidasBoy20043: hey do u wanan go to six flags one day
FenrisAloisWolf: sure, but i thought you were tierd of it lol
FenrisAloisWolf: over the summer i must have went to hurrican harbor three times...my friend daniel from michigan was down and since it was to crummy to go to the beach we went there. i really fell for this kid, but oh well.
(youll notice im just full of random thoughts)
AdidasBoy20043: im not tired of it
AdidasBoy20043: i love to go there as a guest
AdidasBoy20043: but i hate working there
AdidasBoy20043: u know i was gonna play with ur hair on the bus
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah i bet it really sucks...my moms friends daughter works there...um i know the grandmoms name is doris but i dont knw here name
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: lol everyone likes my hair.
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: iw as tempted to test the stiffness of your spikes
AdidasBoy20043: but i told my self no because sarah had here hand on it
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: feel them monday
FenrisAloisWolf: k
FenrisAloisWolf: how do you get your long hair that spikey...when i try it my hair just looks curly
AdidasBoy20043: i know know
AdidasBoy20043: mayeb one night i will do ur hair
AdidasBoy20043: or day
FenrisAloisWolf: lol, it has to get long first
AdidasBoy20043: lol ok
AdidasBoy20043: im staying up late tonight because i have tones of work
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: i was actually going to go to bed....im sorry but im still dead tired.
if you feel, you can e-mail me at bmoran8@earthlink.net
um you already have my phone and i think thtat everything...well g'nite
FenrisAloisWolf: k
AdidasBoy20043: ok
FenrisAloisWolf: one sec im looking for soomerhing
AdidasBoy20043: ahhhhhhh ok
FenrisAloisWolf: ok i foudn it
FenrisAloisWolf: sorry about that.
AdidasBoy20043: its ok
FenrisAloisWolf: so what sup?
AdidasBoy20043: nothing
AdidasBoy20043: i got candy
AdidasBoy20043: for after school
FenrisAloisWolf: thats cool.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: mrs. reubenstein used to sell chips...but now the new principal and everything
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: i hate when someone new comes and changes everything
AdidasBoy20043: i saw ur 7th grade picture
FenrisAloisWolf: really? and who showed you this lol
FenrisAloisWolf: (i think i had thick glasses then)
AdidasBoy20043: my friend heather
AdidasBoy20043: the girls house i went to after
FenrisAloisWolf: lol how did she get a hold of that picture lol
AdidasBoy20043: in the yearbook
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: i kow but was she in my grade?
AdidasBoy20043: u looked soooooo cute
FenrisAloisWolf: lol
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: her name is heather chambers
AdidasBoy20043: she looked dorky back then
AdidasBoy20043: she said
FenrisAloisWolf: im thinking to myself...i would have given anything to say to someone when i was a freshan what your saying to me.
I dont remember her =\....i feel bad now lol.
AdidasBoy20043: its ok
AdidasBoy20043: do u have a year book for Helen a fort
FenrisAloisWolf: no...i lost it a long time ago.
AdidasBoy20043: bad boy
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: lol i wanted to forget.
AdidasBoy20043: nahhhhh
AdidasBoy20043: dont worry pat u can trust me
FenrisAloisWolf: th and 8th grade was weird for me. it was when i first realizing what i was...considered. um even though i was in a "relationship" with someone...i never really considered my self to be gay until really 9th grade. i mean i have always been... it was just hard for me to get over that denial. thats why i was like whoa....you came out at 12
FenrisAloisWolf: i know.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: i didn't come out in middle school
AdidasBoy20043: because it was ruff
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah....i didnt have many problems there...i was always a really strong kid and people where either nice to me or didnt care. i mean its not even like im all that physical. my problems where more emotional than anything else.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: when i was in middle school people made me feel bad
FenrisAloisWolf: like i would see this girl and i would tell myself i like her...and then i would see someone like...for example frank jackson...and just start acting like i was a ditz.
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah i can understand... i just sorta ignored peoples comments...
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: I didnt really let them bother me...i used to be really fat when i was younger, so i developed a thick skin.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: i think u were cute
FenrisAloisWolf: well even though i still weigh about 230 i feel better about myself and could really care less what other people thinkn.
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah, your really cute too. i like your eyes.
AdidasBoy20043: i way 180lbs
AdidasBoy20043: thanks
AdidasBoy20043: i love my eyes
AdidasBoy20043: and urs
AdidasBoy20043: ;-)
FenrisAloisWolf: i wish...thats what i weighed in 7th grade...but thats when i started to slim down a bit.
FenrisAloisWolf: thanks
AdidasBoy20043: u welcome
AdidasBoy20043: i loved it when we first met and u looked right at me
AdidasBoy20043: that was sooo cool
FenrisAloisWolf: Do you find it hard...well i find it hard to relate to other guys really...because im so used to hiding my feelings from them.
Ur welcome.
I get so involved in the inside, but then I have to let it go and i found that hard...thats why most of my friends are females.
FenrisAloisWolf: i mean when i first saw you, i was like...this is interesting. because i knew your were different.
AdidasBoy20043: how was i different
FenrisAloisWolf: Your attitude...your body language all suggested that you were different... like an openmindedness, you know? Sorry, Im really into physcology..
AdidasBoy20043: its ok
AdidasBoy20043: so im different then other guys
FenrisAloisWolf: like you didnt have any preconcieved notions about anything, like you wanted to see for yourself before you gave into stereotypes...
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
FenrisAloisWolf: so what are you interests and hobbies and such?
AdidasBoy20043: hang on hun
FenrisAloisWolf: how did your parents react?
AdidasBoy20043: take it
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: my dad knew all along because one night i was watching cher on tv
AdidasBoy20043: and that was 10
AdidasBoy20043: and my mom didn't belive me at first
FenrisAloisWolf: where they upset...or did the understand?
AdidasBoy20043: they understand
AdidasBoy20043: see when ur over here u can be open
FenrisAloisWolf: i wish it would be that easy for me lol. my parents would never understand. the were brought up through the 30s
AdidasBoy20043: wow
AdidasBoy20043: but u can be open in my house
AdidasBoy20043: like do anything gay
FenrisAloisWolf: *nods* but i would feel so akward. its like wearing a pair of shoes that have been sitting in your closet for 16 years and still havent been broken in yet.
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: youve never been in a relationship?
AdidasBoy20043: once
AdidasBoy20043: but he hurt me
FenrisAloisWolf: the first ones always do dont they?
AdidasBoy20043: no
AdidasBoy20043: the first one is suppose to be the best
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah... shane just decided one day... lets just be friends... im not gay anymore....i mean dont get me wrong in a awy it was the best....he was my friend and then after a while i guess he got bored with me...its funny how real people get after there not having fun anymore...and then he and his family moved.
FenrisAloisWolf: but he was a dork and whateva
FenrisAloisWolf: How did he hurt you?
AdidasBoy20043: hang on hun
AdidasBoy20043: i wouldn't hurt u evere
AdidasBoy20043: ever
AdidasBoy20043: no matter what we will always be friends
AdidasBoy20043: :-)
FenrisAloisWolf: friends. i guess ive watied all my life for that someone...and then i come to the relization that im in no way ready for a realtionship...and it wouldnt be a good idea at them time and then an oppurtunity presents itself and i act on my better judgement and say lets be friends...and thats the type of frienship that last for a long time....thanks.:-)
AdidasBoy20043: u welcome
FenrisAloisWolf: *akward silience*
AdidasBoy20043: i wont see u until monday
FenrisAloisWolf: really? why not?
AdidasBoy20043: ummmm because i dont see u in the halls
FenrisAloisWolf: oh i was thinking tommorow is freiday.
FenrisAloisWolf: i mean i forgot tommorow was friday
AdidasBoy20043: lol
AdidasBoy20043: blonde
FenrisAloisWolf: lol.
AdidasBoy20043: lol
AdidasBoy20043: im a natural Blonde
FenrisAloisWolf: so...whats your answers?
AdidasBoy20043: light light blonde
AdidasBoy20043: but i dyed it
FenrisAloisWolf: im a brown hair brown eyes
AdidasBoy20043: lol i was kidding
FenrisAloisWolf: i know lol
AdidasBoy20043: lol ok
AdidasBoy20043: remember we were on the bus
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah lol
AdidasBoy20043: u were looking at me
FenrisAloisWolf: well yeah...i was trying to get into the conversation. lol you were doing most of the talking.
AdidasBoy20043: i know
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: i just finished watching meet joe black...it was a pretty good movie.
what type of movies do you like/?
AdidasBoy20043: scary and funny
AdidasBoy20043: well 2 romantic movies
AdidasBoy20043: and u have to guess them
FenrisAloisWolf: i like funny and drama/romance. yeah i know obvious ones are pointless.
AdidasBoy20043: i like Tiatnic and pearl Harbor
AdidasBoy20043: u wanna hear something
FenrisAloisWolf: sure
AdidasBoy20043: i thought u were the hottest guy in class
AdidasBoy20043: for real
AdidasBoy20043: and i thought u were str8
FenrisAloisWolf: and now..
AdidasBoy20043: so thats why i was scared to tell u that i was gay plus i thought u would make fun of me
FenrisAloisWolf: i dont make fun of anyone lol, but i understand where you comming from...if i didnt think you fur sure you were gay i would had opened my moth either
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: im sure u thought i was gay from day one
AdidasBoy20043: hey do u wanan go to six flags one day
FenrisAloisWolf: sure, but i thought you were tierd of it lol
FenrisAloisWolf: over the summer i must have went to hurrican harbor three times...my friend daniel from michigan was down and since it was to crummy to go to the beach we went there. i really fell for this kid, but oh well.
(youll notice im just full of random thoughts)
AdidasBoy20043: im not tired of it
AdidasBoy20043: i love to go there as a guest
AdidasBoy20043: but i hate working there
AdidasBoy20043: u know i was gonna play with ur hair on the bus
FenrisAloisWolf: yeah i bet it really sucks...my moms friends daughter works there...um i know the grandmoms name is doris but i dont knw here name
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: lol everyone likes my hair.
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: iw as tempted to test the stiffness of your spikes
AdidasBoy20043: but i told my self no because sarah had here hand on it
AdidasBoy20043: yeah
AdidasBoy20043: feel them monday
FenrisAloisWolf: k
FenrisAloisWolf: how do you get your long hair that spikey...when i try it my hair just looks curly
AdidasBoy20043: i know know
AdidasBoy20043: mayeb one night i will do ur hair
AdidasBoy20043: or day
FenrisAloisWolf: lol, it has to get long first
AdidasBoy20043: lol ok
AdidasBoy20043: im staying up late tonight because i have tones of work
AdidasBoy20043: lol
FenrisAloisWolf: i was actually going to go to bed....im sorry but im still dead tired.
if you feel, you can e-mail me at bmoran8@earthlink.net
um you already have my phone and i think thtat everything...well g'nite